reply to post by LLoyd45
Sorry to hear of your troubles Lloyd,
It seems that there could be a number of reasons for the way you feel, for instance, you first said you "saw nothing" as you died, and seem
concerned by that. Of course, it would be completely natural to die and come back and be worried you saw nothing.. what is there after death? No one
knows, and we rely on those of us who die to tell us. And you saw nothing? I can only imagine how that would feel, my self never have died, I would
hope for at the minimum what Scientist tell us to expect, I would take that to nothing as the spiritual side of me would be disturbed.
IMO, that is your problem, and the only way to fix that would be to re-affirm to your self your own spiritual beliefs, perhaps change them, perhaps
fortify them, and accept what happened or did not happen.
The other possibility is you feel you where done wrong.. you where in someones complete and utter care, they had your life in their hands and they
acted like a jackass, botched the procedure and risked you dieing just to save face.
No doubt that could leave a person with a feeling of emptiness, perhaps taken advantage of when you where in dire need, a lacking ability to rely on
others, maybe angry. I would be angry.
You could always sue the bastard and give the money to people in need, reaffirming your spiritual and giving side, while avenging those who took
advantage of you, a little closure perhaps.
One thing I will tell you NOT to do, is go on anti depressants.. they make you feel like a drone, empty and worthless and practically none-existent..
I don't wish those pills on even my worst enemy.. there is good reason why people loose their sanity while taking them.
Hope that helps some.