posted on Mar, 28 2008 @ 07:24 AM
I've been able to see ghosts since I was little but am beginning to doubt everything. I have always been really terriffied of it and slept in parents
room for years. It has really affected me to this day I am really anxious, jumpy and constantly looking over my shoulder. Noone used to believe me
when I confided in them and they used to tell me I imagined it/ watch to many films. If I did confide in someone I would later always regret it and
feel embarrised and stupid about it and start avoiding the person.
A few months ago I got this feeling of someone charging at me and screaming at me. I also kept seeing a really tall women in my hallway upstairs. She
would appear out of nowhere infront of me and glare down at me but I could not reconise the face.
I went to see a medium (- I didn't tell the medium ANYTHING about being able to ghosts etc or about my life) and she told me she could see a really
tall women looking down at me like the one I have been seeing, she told me it was my nan trying to frighten me. (my nan used to be a complete *****
and hated me so don't tell me a loved one wouldn't do that etc)
The medium then told me she would not bother me again aslong as I do not talk about her. That night I told my mum about it- Then all of a sudden I
could not breathe and felt as though I was having a heart attack and as if I was sinking through the floor. I began to cry. My dog ran out the house
and to the bottom of our paddock. My mum jumped of her seat to comfort me and when she went to hold my hand somebody pinched me and I looked at the
doorway and my nan was there. After that I my legs were numb and I had pins and needles for a while.
A week later we got another medium in our house to get rid of negitive energy or something and she told me there is a women in the family room crying
by a chair (where I got pinched and saw my nan that night)
Since then (about 5 months ago) I do not see ghosts any more . As time goes on I find it harder and harder to accept what I claim to have seen and
begin to think I imagined everything I have seen during my life
Although I am scarred of seeing ghosts, now that I can't see them I really miss being able to and I don't know what to do about it.