Originally posted by cosmicstorm
I do hope no-one feels im wasting time with this post, but if there are others similar to me then they must be feeling the same as i do...... i had
personal experiences as a child aged 7/8, with regards to abduction.... im now 25 and for the past few years things have been getting pretty intense,
im not saying im having abduction experiences, but rather vivid dreams, strange events etc.... i feel very connected to all things of this nature, i
always have..... which makes me feel very different to my peers whose main concern is getting drunk on weekends or boyfriend troubles?? i just cant
relate to any of that.... i feel much more wise and self assured than what i see of other people my age.... ive always felt since i was little that i
was here to do something 'big' although im still waiting to find out what that is...... what i am basically asking is, all you on ats, who have had
experiences or a life long interest in this subject..... do you feel different to others? in almost all aspects of life?....... do other people stare
at you for no reason?.. do you tend not to be in relationships?.. do you have psychic tendancies? do you feel a connection to earth and the
universe?........ i hope i am not sounding too crazy 
despite all this im a student and a mother, and live a pretty normal life!
Im a 21 years old guy from Holland, practically your neighbour
, and i've had these strange and out of the ordinary experiences myself too.
When i was a child, it all started with my first conscious look at the sky.
I remember being a little boy (still am
) at the age of six or seven playing hide and seek.
When i looked up at the sky, i suddenly felt very lonely, but the weirdest thing was, i became homesick.
Very weird, cause i was home, just playing outside.
Soon after that, 3 or 4 months, came the feeling i dont belong here. It is so weird, because i didnt have any knowledge of planets, stars or whatever
is out there.
When i was 13 years old, i stumbled on a dutch website about lucid dreaming.
I kept practicing and practicing until after 3 months, during summer vacation, i had my first, and last lucid dream.
Why im telling this is because it leads to something very important in my short life, astral projection/traveling.
When trying to have a lucid dream i always wake up before it happens and just get in to the state of being fully awake but my body being a sleep,
totally paralyzed.
Im 21 now and its scaring the # outta me every time it happens, the last 8 years.
The weirdest thing is, i can hear people talk when im paralyzed. English language, spiritual topics. Mostly i hear just 3 or 4 sentences, which i dont
understand.
its all very weird. I want to add the fact that i never did "woke up" to whats happening. I never did, i always knew that reality was not the real
reality.
Its just very strange, im having trouble explaining it, its like i was born with the knowledge that governments werent the real governments, truths
were not the real truths and the fact that we are not alone and far inferior to others in this universe, unlike the masses wanna believe.
I never have been abducted, i think. What i do recall is all of these strange dreams. I almost forget all my dreams, but all my dreams having to do
with aliens i remember.
It all began with being on some sort of mothership, being in a classroom getting knowledge about the universe and species. I still dont understand
that one.
Later on, i dreamt of standing in front of the window, looking at the sky, because next to the moon was another planet, maybe 6 times bigger than the
moon. I tolled my family and they came to have a look to. I remember this in particular because i found it odd that they all didnt care that there was
a giant planet next to the moon. They acted like it was as normal as breathing.
Suddenly the sky was filled with ufo's fighting eachother. then my dream ended.
i think this is much more than coincidence, its quite shocking there are so many of us, at similar age etc....
