Honestly, yes I am comparing the dreams. I have dreamed of heaven, hell, sex, violence, fun, weirdness, movies, shapes,...anything.
Dreams are normal. If I dreamed of seeing Christ nearly drowning in blood... I'd be freaked out, but I'd still use a level head about it. I'd
then dream of a boat to rescue the poor guy. I'd wake up and know that I'd need to search for some answers, because my head sure seems to be asking
questions... but I would still be realistic about it.
"having fun, sex, fantasies, (is) evil and i stay away from it. "
I think you've got this all wrong. Having fun isn't evil. Neither is sex, neither are fantasies. Our perceptions and uses of these things can
become evil.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I'm a wild, immoral SOB. I am saying that you should use a level head. Going 18 years without Christ is not a
long time. Put yourself in the shoes of a 50 year old who loses his entire family and wonders "why". Be Gene Simmons on the day he went to see
John Edwards, where he finally started asking himself the question, "is there life after death?" Look at your life and see how much of it you have
left to live and experience and enjoy. Are you enjoying yourself? Or do you find yourself constantly fighting and arguing with everyone because they
are not sharing your messages/beliefs.
Remember, when you open your eyes from a dream, it is a brand new day. God gave that to you "everyday!" Maybe that was the message, plain and
simple. Put away your BibleHammer and smile. At this rate, one day you'll only hate God more for your own shortcomings. You just need more
guidance. Consider this: People like Jesus inspired peace, but people who followed him inspired war. If anyone is to blaim for the horrors of the
world, it's the person who stares back at you in the mirror.
You may think I'm trying to tempt your mind with evil, but I'm merely trying to show you "realism."
You know, there are two types of prayers. The ones where you talk... and talk... and talk...
and the ones where you both talk and listen.
Which do you practice? I see you talking and talking, ... but no listening. The world isn't full of devils, the world is full of people. You
aren't full of evil, you're full of choices. The best thing that you can do is choose the greater good and the lesser evil in any situation. How
can God ask for more from you?
Please feel free to question my faith. It currently stands on shakey grounds, but none the less... I will always believe in God, inspite of the
details.