posted on Feb, 29 2008 @ 07:28 PM
You're Exactly RIGHT!
Pharmaceutical drugs almost KILLED me!
Let me begin by saying that drugs were with me from 16 up.
After many traumatic events, I ended up in a private mental facility for depression. After spending time with certain doctors, I was diagnosed with
bi-polar, agoraphobia and I had psychotic features.
I was on lithium, tegratol, wellbutrin and others I can't remember.
The doctor decided to put me on Haldol.
That same night in the facility, after meds, I felt sick.
I didn't know for sure if it was the medicine, but I didn't want to go off any meds that might help 'cure' me.
Little by little, I blacked out. "Where is my purse?" (We were allowed personal items, as long as they weren't 'sharps'.)
I 'came to' one time and I was finishing a pastel in art.
What was going ON?
I was STILL taking my 3 time a day meds, I was also wearing a nicotine patch,(Put on by the nurses)It was 21mg AND I was STILL smoking marlboro
The next thing I know, I'm laying in my bed watching a couple of baseball players pitching back and forth(They had uniforms on). My favorite nurse
was holding my hand and telling me it was going to be alright.
Then, she was GONE. I went to the nurses' desk. All the other patients were gone to therapy or somewhere and it was really peaceful and quiet. I
asked the nurse where my nurse was and she said, "Virginia's not here today, honey."
I told her about what was going on in my room just a couple of yards away and she grew concerned and said that I HAD to tell my parents to get my
meds changed. The nurse and I told my Mom the next Sunday visit.
She told the Administrators, but they defended, saying that it MUST be a drug I had taken outside of the clinic. That it was permanent and for her to
join a support group.
I had signed myself in to get help for depression and to 'get myself together'.
So, only I could ask for a change, but, I couldn't!
Well, My Dad came up there and threatened them with a shotgun if they didn't change my doctor and they brought in another, younger doctor.
I 'woke up' and looked at my room, which had some new things in it and, later, when my Mom came, I was like, "What is going on?"
Of course, my depression and suicidal tendencies only got worse.
I eventually quit ALL my mental medications, but I still did recreational ones to keep me going.
You know what happens if you O.D. on Stelazine?( a pharmaceutical drug)
Your whole right side seizes up, WEIRD!
One of my dear friends(Who was about 20 years older than me got caught in the doctor prescribed stupor, also.
I went to see her , when she could still drive. She was on MANY meds. I told her to tell her doctor to take her off and let her mind clean up, but she
couldn't and a few years later, she was dead of complications.
I've only seen a devil twice, once when I was slipped a mind-altering hallucination liquid.
The DAY I got saved, I was TOTALLY healed and I haven't even smoked a cigarette in 10 years!
SORRY for my long story, but it won't cost you a dime and it's TRUE!