A feeling like you are waiting for something???, page 5

All I can say is wow!

I put my first post in this thread up after reading only the OP's post as I was short on time before needing to go to work and wanted to cover off on a few more topics here at ATF. I threw the post out quickly becuase I felt it important for the OP to get an affirming reply that yes, someone else is feeling this.

Now that I have completed reading all of the posts in the thread, I'm somewhat freaked out a bit as there are so many similarities across so many people with things that I feel and have also encountered.

I also, fit within the apparant age frame. I am 38 years old. As a child, my favorite thing to do was to ask my mother for a slice of bread at bed time where I would then pretend to be in a hollowed out tree having to ration my "supplies" and that there was no one left alive on the world except for myself. I was also prone to night terrors that when awoken, I could not remember the content of the nightmare. I was a sleepwalker as a child and that receded as I grew older. Of most notable interest to me of my childhood time is my Mother recalling that I used to frequently, in my sleep, hold conversations with "someone" in a language that my mother could not understand. She could tell it was conversations by my tone inflections...sometimes I would be asking questions, sometimes I would be providing answers, sometimes I would be laughing and talking, and yes, other times there were heated arguments that I would be engaged in. I don't talk much in my sleep anymore, I don't sleep walk at all anymore, and unfortunately, this language is competely gone.

I do occasionally have night terrors still where a dark entity comes to me and basically just screws with me. It is during these dreams where I experience the sleep paralysis and the dreams of waking up, but not really waking up regardless of how "aware" I am that I am asleep and need to wake up.

I have only recently (within the last month) begun to see shadows. I work the evening shift and on the way home at night I have started seeing flitting things near the side of the road. Always the passanger side of the road and often times I hit my breaks thinking I'm about to hit something, just to find out that there is nothing there. Tonight was the first night that I hit my breaks becuase I thought I was going to hit a bird or an owl. The shadow passed very quickly in front of the vehicle, high up..just about even with the top portion of the windshield. It has been very unsettling.

I would have thought about checking myself into a nice little 3-day hold somewhere until I shared this with my wife, who blanched when I told her all of the things that have been happening to me. She's been experiencing the same things and will no longer walk the dogs at night alone.

We both have an insane sense of urgency of becoming self-sufficient and bracing ourselves. This summer, we're having a root-cellar/shelter dug into the ground near the house. We've also got the insane urge to understand everything we can about the plants native to our area and to begin stockpiling basic necessities: flour, rice, beans, corn meal, peroxide, baking soda, first aid supplies, etc.

As for some feeling a sense of sadness...yes, we have been hit with that as well. It is as if something, somewhere is grieving..that something has been lost...something has shifted us towards a path that we can not back away from. But even with as intense as the sadness can be at times, there is always an underlying feeling of hope and looking forward to getting past whatever event the sadness is attached to.

And yes...we both have ringing of the ears. I always attributed to some kind of tinitus but seeing the references here was interesting.

I don't know what is coming, but I wish you all the best with it. Peace.