I remember when I was 18 and left highschool something did change and that change was the feeling that something needed to change...
I remember when I came back from a semester in college my mom kept on saying that I was different somehow. Not so much in a good way either. She was
kind of confused by it.
Anyway. Durring this time I was depressed, confused and had pretty much given up on the "dream" so to speak. I was like, "Wow, this really is it.
Life kind of sucks." And so I wait... for something, WHAT? I dont know, but is this it?
And so I grabed a rock and called it luck to travel someplace real near. I didnt know how and I didnt know where, but there was SOMETHING in here.
What was it? It was myself and the feeling of change was the desire to find who I truly was. Because before then, I had no idea. I dont think many
people do. THATS WHY THEY LIE!
I long for something I cant explain
everyday I feel its pain
so mysterious and confusing
when I think Ive grasped it, it starts eluding
so neglected and misunderstood
I dont know if its bad or good
its something big, but yet so small
something close, but yet so far
I feel it from within myself
I feel it through someone else
it comes to me from the skies
it comes to me through wishing eyes
its a subtle breeze I barely notice
but its power cant be focused
it seems upsetting, but its beauty is hidden
like some desire I have forbidden
I search for its answer everyday
in everything that comes my way
whatever it is must be a lesson
but I dont even know the question
[edit on 21-2-2009 by Wisen Heimer]
