I remember when I was 18 and left highschool something did change and that change was the feeling that something needed to change...

I remember when I came back from a semester in college my mom kept on saying that I was different somehow. Not so much in a good way either. She was kind of confused by it.

Anyway. Durring this time I was depressed, confused and had pretty much given up on the "dream" so to speak. I was like, "Wow, this really is it. Life kind of sucks." And so I wait... for something, WHAT? I dont know, but is this it?

And so I grabed a rock and called it luck to travel someplace real near. I didnt know how and I didnt know where, but there was SOMETHING in here. What was it? It was myself and the feeling of change was the desire to find who I truly was. Because before then, I had no idea. I dont think many people do. THATS WHY THEY LIE!

I long for something I cant explain
everyday I feel its pain
so mysterious and confusing
when I think Ive grasped it, it starts eluding
so neglected and misunderstood
I dont know if its bad or good
its something big, but yet so small
something close, but yet so far
I feel it from within myself
I feel it through someone else
it comes to me from the skies
it comes to me through wishing eyes
its a subtle breeze I barely notice
but its power cant be focused
it seems upsetting, but its beauty is hidden
like some desire I have forbidden
I search for its answer everyday
in everything that comes my way
whatever it is must be a lesson
but I dont even know the question

[edit on 21-2-2009 by Wisen Heimer]

where are you?

[edit on 31-1-2010 by lucasfranz]

i have had this feeling for a long time as well. i have in the past had many dreams that end up coming true with 100% accuracy, unless i purposely did something to change it. these dreams always have a different feel to them then regular dreams, and when i wake up, i know that it was one of these dreams. i had one of these dreams a few years back, and i believe that it is what i am waiting for. in this dream, it was clear that the world had changed, although i cant tell for sure what had caused the change. everything appeared to be in bad shape. all of the businesses were pillaged and the buildings were dilapidated, as if they had been unmaintained in years. there were cars on the street that looked like they hadnt ran in years, and many of them looked like they had been picked over for materials. i was with a group of people, it seemed trying to help us all survive. it was as if martial law had been declared. i woke up white as a ghost, and with the terrible feeling that it was one of 'those' dreams.

i have had ringing in my ears, but i always assumed that was just a normal thing.

i have seen shadow people while with friends(we just called them shadows), and they were seen by more than just one person at the same time almost every time it happened. the last time i saw one, i had something strange happen later the same day. i got into my car and checked my rear view mirror, and i saw a bald man with a goatee in the back seat. he looked either very evil, or in extreme anguish. i was frozen, looking at him for several seconds. when i finally did manage to look away and then look again, he was gone. when asked later what he looked like, the best way i could describe him is that it looked like me, except he was bald and had a goatee and probably about 30-35 years old. that was about 9 years ago. i am 28 years old now, and about 6 months ago, i had a head injury. i started shaving my head cause my hair doesnt grow there anymore. i now look like him

Originally posted by universalconsciousness

I am 27 now and have felt this way for atleast the last 15+ years, way before i started using the internet and searching sites like this one.

I do not know what it is yet but for as long as i can remember I have always felt that something wasn't right and that I was waiting for something to happen, a major change to the world? or to way of life in general?, i'm not sure, there is just something inside me that tells me that in my lifetime I will see a major change.

Are there other people on here that have felt this for some time???

Absolutely, sometimes more than others. Occassionally the feeling is so strong I'll check the news every chance I get looking for something I can only describe as "life altering"; something that would strongly affect me and my life - and many others. BUT so far nothing like that has happened. The feeling passes and my life is the same. After this happens I feel such disappointment for some reason like something exciting was supposed to happen but didn't.
So much for intuition
BTW, I'm 29 and I wouldn't say I've felt it for 15 yrs, but definitely the past 8.
My eldest sister feels it too from time to time.

Ok...I feel strongly that there is something that is going to change the whole way our civilization works right now..it is not something like catastrophic vision but rather more like internal change in what we perceive as worth in our lives...
we will be given new meaning of life I believe - something new to give us purpose in life...no more money and possesions in the shape as we have now , and relations between people - I believe it is what is changing within me already - it's as if you love everyone the same and nobody more than that - I am starting to feel no special affection towards my family, but in the same time I feel like everyone is important to me and I need to take care of people. That's why I found myself in teaching children...but still I know I am waiting for something more...
the only thing is I don't have any dreams about future - all my dreams are about some real things that need to be changed...I somehow feel like there is no future for me after that "change"...I always had the strange feeling there is no need for me to grow up because my life will be short...I don't want to believe this...but why that feeling hounts me?! am I the one that is not going to live through this "change"...?

[edit on 14-2-2010 by lucasfranz]

I am so glad I found this post. I have been searching the net for a long time to find like minded people. About 3 days ago I was convinced I had to go to the mental or commit suicide because I was the only one feeling like I have been waiting for something and waiting for it too long. My entire life I have felt out of place and like I have read from others, just let people talk. I am not much of a talker, I like hearing perspectives, and I do not fight to solve anything. I can't remember how long I've felt like my entire life has been setup. All the pain, all the good times, who I was an who I am becoming. Seems like everything that happens is a test and finding this post and this site is like a little reward for all I've done. There is a lot of speculation out there of what this waiting period is... like is it bad is it good? Could it be collective consciousness in action? Is the world going to get blown up? Maybe the reason the enlightened are only "waiting" at this period in time is because it is not yet time to act. Do you think when the time is right we will know when, and what to do? All I know is I can't wait to see something happen, kind of feels like it is mostly what I am hanging on for.