posted on Feb, 17 2004 @ 01:32 PM
I've been posting alot today but Iwant to start this thread because i've been thinking about this for awhile now.
I didn't like my husband at first when I met him, I mean I liked him on the internet because he was a smart ass and was definitely straight to the
point, I thought he was awesome...
Until we met. blaaaah... I was thought, what the hell??? He looks like a hobbit. I didn't want to see him again because he wasn't my type at all...
He was bald, short, and had a funny eye. Not to mention he reminded me of peguin in batman...
So as time went on we just talked on the phone, he had a very sexy voice, and was still so intelligent...
he fell in love with me 3 weeks into our so called relationship. I however, didn't like his physical appearance. I wasn't straight with him and hurt
him many times, until I pulled my head out of my ass....
I thought you know what, this guy is the nicest, sweetest, strong minded individual i've ever met, he's patriotic, passionate about freedoms,
sensible and can stand on his own two feet like real man..
Looks wasn't an issue anymore.. It's just fizzled out and I saw him for the first time... he WAS good lookin, he had the sexiest eyes, and cute
little freckle on his face.
He was tough lookin and had a great body suddenly.
woah! This hobbit dude disappeared and now I have this handsome prince... I got the best of both worlds for once.........
So we married 6 months later......
Here's the issue:
I haven't felt the same kind of love I had for my very first boyfriend....... Even though he broke my heart, I still loved him and thought I would be
with him forever. I would of done anything for him, he loved me too, but I left for home and he told i'd meet lot's of other guys and to start
dating he said i'd be happy... That killed me, I was crushed for awhile after that.
got over it, and dated a few times after and now i'm married, but still haven't had that same feeling ever since.
Am I in love? Or do I just feel lucky to have such a great guy now and love "our relationship" It's a totally healthy relationship, we share the
same ideologies, both have the same epistimological base, get along great, fight about stupid *, but that feeling isn't there.
In my heart, I know I couldn't live without him, he's definitely my match, but that strong feeling is lacking..
Anybody?? help please.. I've been pondering this for quite some time now and still haven't been able to shed light on this.