posted on Jul, 9 2010 @ 05:43 PM
Okay, this is going to sound odd, but it is what it is.
Around 1973 or so, I read Robert Monroe's book, Journeys Out of the Body. I practiced his methodology and achieved an OBE -- several, in fact.
I had negative experiences. I continued. Right after that (this was about '77 or so)..... I began having sleep paralysis events. They
terrified me. I still continue to have them, although much less frequently than in the past, and they no longer terrify me, as I've gained an
awareness WHILE paralyzed, that I am experiencing a SP event, and I can just wait patiently until I can awaken fully.
As recently as three years ago, my Bride would wake me up, saying I was making "horribly afraid mewling sounds." Mewling? Me??? How
Okay. Now I can't state with any certainty a real causation between the OBE and the SP; They feel connected to me, and perhaps I'm just not an
evolved enough creature to be able to work within this etherial framework.
Here's the crux of what I want to share with others: I still have OBE experiences, and for the most part, they are enjoyable. I have given
myself fully to the experience in the past -- exploring -- hoping to find that there is nothing to fear, except my own primate fear of the unknown.
I cannot shut it off.
That's the part that bothers me. Perhaps to break through frontiers of human awareness, we must relinquish control. To date, the only part
about this all is that I don't feel that I have free will and choice -- in fact, it feels to me that the experience is somewhat random.
There you have it. I don't care if anyone believes me. I have and will continue to have no evidence. I've talked with several "experts"
online who have told me that I'm fighting something natural, and that my negative experiences are of my own creation. Maybe they're right.
I know this....... I know what a wash of malevolence feels like, and I would do a lot to avoid feeling that again. Choose wisely, with more
information that I had, if you choose to pursue Out-of-body experiences, that's my advice.
[edit on 9/7/10 by argentus]