Thanks for the flattery.
I could have written more, but I was seriously limited by the 5000-char limit for posting.
For example, for every other source which was mentioned by Michael Topper (aka "M.T."), I have actually bought their books and actually read and
studied these books. There were quite a few:
There was "The RA Material", a channeled work by Rueckert, McCarthy, et. al - (www.lawofone.info) ; indeed, M.T. was right, it is quite some
brilliant material. But my old problem showed up again: "Yes, this is valueable information, but very theoretical, and I have no grasp how,
precisely, to apply this to my everyday life!"
M.T. mentioned in a reader's letter in a passing way that he was fond of "Manly Palmer Hall - The secret teachings of all ages" - guess what: I got
all books from M.P.Hall - guess what - same problem: "Theoretical! Too theoretical!"
(I know what you think now - you think "My god, what a book freak! What strenouus search!" - and you are totally right...)
M.T. mentioned, on elaborating the kundalini, that the material from Carlos Castaneda is correct - guess what, I got all Carlos Castaneda books just
because of that .... and almost again, the same result: "Too theoretical!!" - except (maybe this is gonna be a help for you) - except ONE book from
Castaneda: "TENSEGRITY" - a method of "strange" movements quite similar to Tai Chi and apparently for the same purpose, i.e. to increase your Chi
energy and to raise your consciousness (Hooray! At last!). - I did not try every "Tensegrity" movement, althogh I have visited Tai Chi and Qi Gong
courses when I was younger. But my experience is that Tensegrity is really helpful. - In a short analysis, Tensegrity only seems to care about your
"lower" centers, like spleen, kidney, liver etc.etc. which "have to be in a top shape" according to Castaneda ; this is all nice to me, but the
question arose: "What about my higher centers? What about heart, throat and 3rd eye chakra?" - This question is nowhere answered anywhere in
Tensegrity. Personally, I find it strange that Tensegrity is so pre-occupied with the inner organs around the navel....but I have heard from other
sources that these are our "most vulnerable" places in the body which needs our attention and in all likelyhood, our cleansing most. This could well
M.T. also once mentioned in a "reader's letter" a source named "Thartang Tulku". NO, I did NOT read all Tulku books yet! I need to have a life
I "only" was readine *one* book from Tulku, but eventually gave it back rather soon to the library, the reason was....oh, you guessed it
already? "Too theoretical!" - Bingo! Exactly!
Last, but not least, Val Valerian's book "Matrix 4" has a very peculiar ending. The essay "Logos/Anti-Logos Part 2" (naturally, by M.T.) ends
with the conclusion that "Ego" is not an illusion, but ..."a specific organizational function that accounts for the disposition of *will* in 3rd
The conclusion goes: "Therefore, the disposition of ego is never automatic. Ego must do work, in order to be integrated into any context according to
intent. It must do work if it would be compatible with the whole being Value to which it was introduced". .... "The ego is the Doer. The Doer must
do, in order for its Being to be realized in the dimension where it dwells". (end of book)
Now, look at how OSHO defines EGO: "Ego is given to you by society. .... Ego is everything that is false....." with the conclusion "you have to
drop ego" or better said, Ego has to drop by itself so your real Self is revealed.
That, ofcourse, is how I experienced it in meditation - the internal monologue dropped, thus, everything that blocks the perception of the natural
bliss was removed, thus, I was in a very blissful state. It is not something that a "doer" has "done" ; it is something that was "archieved" by
stopping to clinging to something else that blocks my perception! (At least, that's how it feels like, according to my very own experience.)
"Meditation" thus, properly understood, is never a "doing" but more an aligning to a certain intrinsic quality of being. That intrinsic quality is
totally revealed as soon as your representant of Ego, namely, the internal monologue, has dropped. It's actually that simple!
Sooooo, after a long time of reading, a time of reading pretty much everything, I tend to lean more towards' OSHO's conclusions, because that's
also the way I have experienced it.
The only problem for me was to move out of the chair because the non-thinking state, finally archieved, is so blissful that you cannot move; you are
sitting like in a frozen shock in the chair; as soon as I moved, the thoughts were there again.
However, since all the enlightened masters are permanently in such a blissful state even whilst walking and talking, I have to assume that this is
possible for me too; and I'll tell you more as soon as I know how to do just that!
However,I'm at 5000 chars,again.