posted on Jan, 29 2008 @ 02:23 PM
I do not know if this will work for you, but I would suggest that you find a mentor, someone outside your social arena. Look into big Brothers
When I hit rock bottom, I had a very mean Mom that took me by the hand and helped me through the roughest part. She has since passed on, but I will
always ,always be thankful she loved me enough to help me make it through to the light.
It sounds as if you are a good person, a smart person with real moral fiber so to speak.
Think of it this way if you choose, that for what ever reasons that you chose to walk the path you have, it no longer serves you or your best
interest. So,Thank it for bringing you to who and where you are now, and then let go.
Once you make this type of decision, you take full responsibility for your actions and therefore become responsible for your intelligence.
You are the Master of your life, not your dysfunction.
U2U me anytime, I will be very happy to be your friend and watch as you take steps toward your freedom and independence...