posted on Jan, 28 2008 @ 04:45 PM
No major psych issues before joining Army, just average ups and downs of childhood and adolescence.
I became really paranoid on the DMZ, the DeMilitarized Zone, between North and South Korea, in 1990-91, at the same time as the first Gulf War, in
which our tours of duty were extended to 18 months,
I have to include something here which may have additional bearing:
I was stationed at Guard Post Collier as a DMZ MP (on a rotation from Camp Casey/Tongdu chon with the 2nd Infantry Division),
and I went AWOL with a young pretty Korean girl, before the Gulf Desert Shield began, later I turned myself in. Since up to that time, I had served
over 2yrs with faithful ability and was on the fast track to promotion (on the verge of making Sgt. and qualifying for recruitment into Special Forces
as an 18 echo communications Green Beret). I decided against going down that path and went AWOL instead, effectively ending my career. In 1991 as
the Gulf War actually began (later becoming a brief war), I also had been seeing the Chaplain and had problems with religion and my conscience. I
eventually declared conscientious objector status, and was later honorably discharged.
I think Einstein said something like: "if no one picked up a rifle to fight, there would be no wars."
Nonetheless, I do believe in defending one's country (especially during WWII, its the more recent wars, Korea, Vietnam, Iraq, Afghanistan, that
When I exited out of the Army from the then operational Presidio, I got on a bus home and a stranger listened to my story, asked me where I planned to
go to college and then cryptically said while getting off the bus, "Take Care", a passing comment, but as I was already paranoid at that point, it
always bothered me.
When I got off the bus at an unscheduled stop, at a closed gas station, on a highway at least 10 miles or more to my mothers home (where I was
headed), a young man appeared out of the darkness (he was not from the bus, as I had been the only one to get off), and walked and talked to me as I
walked along the hwy, and we were picked up by a car and taken to the small town I was going to. I never saw that stranger again, and I had known the
driver who picked us up, and she said the stranger also got off at the same town. She was kinda upset, that I did not tell her I never knew the
strange companion, and something bad could have happened if he had been a criminal or violent or something.
I've had other strange occurences on buses too.
Maybe since I objected to the military back then, they began monitoring me.
Although, I have never been anykind of threat, I am not political, I have not joined any controversial groups, I lead a quiet life, besides my time on
the road over the years traveling far and wide, like many veterans.
When I began researching the paranormal, ufo, conspiracy subjects from 2001-2005, things took a turn for the worse.
I also became delusional (grandiose), claiming I was either an et (my father being in the Air Force, possibly an et), or some kind of angel or
I read that Saint Origen an ancient mystic Christian, claimed that angels can incarnate into human form. My belief being that some angels incarnate
at human birth as a baby and lead human lives to experience what its like to be human. It would explain my troubles in part, and my partial
clairvoyance and clairsentience and clairaudience, or it could be that the unseen forces simply have thought wavelength tech that can inject thoughts
or pick them up.
Angels, and some ets have telepathy, and one cannot hide things from each other with these abilities, thus, more honesty and less crime/war.
There are other bizarre events in my past/present, but I am getting a little more paranoid mentioning them here, I will probably drop out of ATS, and
merely lurk about for a while. I have completed my goal of getting my story out for others to ponder, and will be moving on.