posted on Jan, 17 2008 @ 10:38 PM
reply to post by Nyorai
I used to have severe panic attacks and they are no fun. It's not easy, but you can get a handle on them, to some extent. I used to take high doses
of meds, which was not the answer in my case, for it just led me down a path of even more extreme problems.
I grew up in Ohio and it started with being afraid of storms, especially tornados. I was seven and lived in Columbus when Xenia was leveled by one.
When tornado warnings would go off, my dad would go with me to the basement so I felt better. At elementry school my classes were on a second story,
and when the sirens would go off, the school would turn on their own alarm system, which was so loud and disturbing. I would cry until I couldn't
breathe. This same school I attended was across the street from the largest military depo (by railway) in the U.S.. If you realize this was the
early 70's, the Cold War was well underway and we had nuclear drills that were called "Duck & Cover." I remember hearing adults talk and them
saying that this base was like number five on the U.S.S.R.'s hit list. Between fire, tornado & duck/cover drills - I was a mess.
That is how my problem started. From there I had a fear of driving in the city. I had to take back roads, whenever possible because a highway led to
hyperventilation. From being a child of the cold war, the build up of troops in both Operation Desert Shield and Storm made my heart feel as if it
was going to come out of my chest. I no longer have FOX News but their 'breaking news' alarm would bring one on and it seemed like they had
alarming news daily. The last panic attack I had was on 911. I woke up to it and I was a mess.
The final frontier is death. Our minds know it is a process we all have to go through, but like you said, we become very attached to our spouse, our
kids, our pets & the scenery. We don't want to be seperated from all we are and all we've known.
I'm scared too, but I believe in an afterlife. Don't get alarmed just from reading things. Most things never come to pass. My way of measuring
how bad something really is - if ABC, NBC, & CBS (the main networks) are not breaking into their shows to report something, it's probably not that
big of a deal.
[edit on 17-1-2008 by Myrtales Instinct]