posted on Dec, 25 2007 @ 09:21 PM
They really can suck sometimes, huh? Don't get me wrong, got some cool stuff, spent the day with the folks, but I do that everyday being a minor, but
I was just out of it today. I don't know why.
Today was the first time in maybe a year, that I've had suicidal thoughts. Again, I don't know why. I may be bitter that this was the first
christmas after my grandfather died. Hell, I know thats part of it. But other than that, I just can't explain it. Maybe that why christmas is the
number 1 day to kill yerself?
The folks were home all day, but I felt really alone.
I had this girl on my mind today, and whenever she shows her face, metaphorically of course, it's pretty much a bad day. Today was also the first day
in a while I couldn't get her off my mind. I may think of her occasionaly, but that ain't a big deal. A year ago on any given day, I'd be thinking
of her all the time. I'd been able to keep her off my mind for the last 4 months of so, but she was back with a vengence today.
Ah, nothing like christmas, huh?