Thank you asala for this thread. My heart is always sad this time of year. I have gotten better through the years thanks in part to having kids and
seeing their joy. But, Christmas has always been sad for me since I was about 13 years old. I lost my grandmother that year on new years eve
December 31 -1981. It was very hard to see her die. It was unexpected and I was not prepared for it. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was
just a kid. My mother and dad left out of state to go see her in the hospital. They left 2 out of 3 of us kids with friends. I stayed with my
girlfriend and had the worse time because I was so worried. When I was there a sudden emptiness came over me about the 3rd day. I cried at my
friends house so hard. I told her my grandmother just died. I felt it so strong. She try to tell me it wasn’t so and she will be alright. No
one called me they came home a day later and picked me up. I asked my mother if she died. She would not answer me till we got home. Then they told
me. She did pass away the same hour I felt it. I loved my grandmother and have never forgotten her.
As if this wasn’t enough of Holiday sadness for me. I lost my 3 closes relatives all in the same year same month in December 1988. . My
mothers sister my aunt passed December 10-1988. My favorite aunt whom I still think of daily passed away December 12-1988. My favorite Uncle of
all times passed away December 22 1988. I cried so much those couple of weeks I literally ran out of tears. I didn’t know that was possible till
I miss them all so much. Its like a place is missing in me without them. I cry every year. I try and hide it from my kids I don’t want to upset
them. But, it’s so hard. I haven’t learned how to let it go. There’s so many more loved ones who has passed but these have truly affected
So I thank you for the lighting of a candle idea. Today is the day that My uncle passed away. Oh the tears they just keep coming.
I would like to also light a couple candles. One for my Grandpa and Grandma, he died around Christams in 1999and she died on Thanksgiving 1993, one
for my great-grandpa and great-grandma who passed away in 1999 and 2000. We all miss you here on Earth, love you all!
Just wanted to compliment you on that gorgeous display for this holiday season. Very beautiful and imaginative.
Also wanted to light a candle for my Mother and Grandfather. They are missed. Happy holidays everyone! Sizzle
P.S. I want to also light a candle for my best friend, Sizzle who left me all too soon. I bear her nickname here in honor of her. Rest in Peace
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