posted on Dec, 10 2007 @ 05:43 PM
I would say it has all happen over the last 6 months... i dont think that it would mean a loss of power... one strange thing though, my parents are
moving in a couple weeks, to a country on the otherside of the world
Mabye it could be a dentail problem, i havent been to one in a couple years, the last time i was there, some idiot nurse had no idea what she was
doing, so after she screwed up for the 5th time in an hour, so i gave her a little peice of my mind, and said a little something nice to the doctor,
who i will just call Mr. Muhamed. The nurse chipped my tooth a little. They also screwed up on my lil bros teeth, and when they put a cap on his
teeth, it fell out, THREE TIMES, before they got it right. A couple months ago, my parents switched dentist, my mother and sisters also had problems
there, i gave up on them about 2 years ago. Ill go to the dentist over christmas break.
The idea about losing ones true self, makes a bit more sense. Since the end of the spring semester, about 6 months ago, i have been wondering what i
am doing in school. I should be happy, i am in one of the 'prestigious' school in the great University of California school system. Everyday i wake
up and wonder what i am doing here. I am confident in myself, and i want to be free to do what i want, to experiment, and try to make some of my
wacky inventions i have in mind, at least one of the dozens of legitimate ideas i have should be able to hit the jackpot. I dont need some peice of
paper from a bunch of stuffed-shirts telling me that i am smart and special. Every day at this place is a living hell.
I dont want to disapoint my father, he only means the best for his children. He says he doesnt care what we do, as long as we are happy, right now i
am failing him to the most extreme, i am more unhappy each day (with the occastional exeption of a wonderful evening with a wonerful woman), i am just
coasting thru this school and im sick of it. I always thought that i would just keep along the Math/Science line and eventualy something would click
and i would find my niche, but it has yet to happen.
Thanks for the ideas. And would aperciate more input....