posted on Feb, 3 2004 @ 07:43 PM
After having lurked around other ATS boards for a bit, some personal issues have lead me to some spiritual questions in my life that I was hoping some
one might be able to answer or at least point me in the right direction on.
To make a long story, short, I was engaged to a lovely girl, we had been dating exclusively for six years prior to being engaged. There were some very
real communication problems in our relationship which led to us breaking up. A year has passed since the breakup and as we have kept in touch, our
communication has improved, but our conversations, even about day-to-day things can turn into very draining experiences.
Some more background and why I'm wondering if something more might be involved. I can't say I've been into spirtuality all that much, was raised as
Catholic but haven't identified with it for as long as I can remember. When I was in my early teens, 13-17, I had a number of very strange dreams.
These dreams all had the same setting and flow. They took place at a Victorian style home, with people in period dress, with a type of party going on.
Everything was quite detailed, almost like I had exceptional vision, as I could make out individual fibers on people's clothing but the odd part was,
that the air had a smoky/yellowish haze to it. I didn't recognize any of these people in the house, but at some point in wandering through the crowd
my attention drawn to one single person. At that point, this person and I began to converse, although what we talked about I can't remember.
After waking up from these dreams, I "knew" that this wasn't an ordinary dream and that somehow the person in my dream would be important to my
life. I've had a total of four dreams like this so far and to date I've met three of the people from those dreams. Two of whom are my best friends
and the other being my ex.
I didn't meet them immediately after having these dreams, actually some time usually passed, anywhere from two to five years.
Ok, cut to about 4 months ago. At a party, as entertainment there was a psychic who did a tarot reading for all the guests. In my reading she picked
out the physical aspects of my ex and nailed her personality traits dead on, even some details about her favorite holiday and why it was important to
my ex. The psychic also said that a lot of the problems she and I were experiencing were things we were replaying from a past life, and that we have a
spirit guide in common. All of which is well and good, but it is me, and I know very little about this type of thing.
Which is where my questions come in...bear with me, I know this is a long post.
1) When she and I talk, even starting talking about little things, for instance maybe the weather, or talking about a tv show we both saw, things can
just get really draining emtionally for us both. I've read a little about psychic vampires and was wondering if there was a way to determine if
either or both of us was acting as one, or if perhaps someone else was feeding on us?
2) Obviously after the break-up there was emotional pain but for some reason, I felt a much deeper pain, almost as if I could feel it in my soul. I'm
just wondering is there any type of healing for this? or perhaps is this the cause of the draining feeling we both get? Ideally, if this is the case I
hope to find some type of healing that will benefit us both.
3) Assuming the psychic is correct and she and I are reliving experiences from a past life, what's the best way to break the mold as it were?
Thanks in advance for any insight that anyone can provide. Although it would be nice, I'm not expecting direct answer to my questions. Anything from
additional reading to someone saying that's normal is appreciated. And just for clarification, yes, I do love her but no I'm not doing this to "win
her back", (at least not consciously) I'm just trying improve the time we do share now as friends, so its something enjoyable and not something
that wears us down.