posted on Nov, 5 2007 @ 02:56 AM
At one time I had faith, but I was still empty, I prayed like it was a thirst needing to be quenched. I was still searching for happiness, and found
none. I was guilty of needing that Sunday fix to enforce the faith by fear, and to hold on to the illusion of being content, or fulfilled. I
witnessed miracles, that modern science could not explain. Where these acts from God working through man, or just by man?
I'm still searching, but I refuse to live my life in fear. At one time my everything was based on faith, but continuing to believe in things that
seemed so one sided and empty, and manipulated, by going against reason, did its toll on me, and the believe/faith faded.
Now I base my belief in reason, and I continue to study religion, and alternative belief systems, right now I'm interested in alchemy and numerology,
but I'm still seeking answers for questions that I may never find.
One boy tells another boy, "I must have been really good last year because Santa brought me lots of gifts for Christmas".
The other boy responds, "my parents bought me many gifts because they love me, why do you think that Santa gave you these gifts."
The first boy responds "Well the milk and cookies I left for him were gone, when I went to bed their were no gifts under the tree, but when I woke up
there were many.
The other boy responds "This is why you believe in Santa?"
The first boy responds "No I believe because my parents told me so"
Conditioning in all its glory.