Ok…….where did I trail off from……..?
Oh, yeah, about then end of part 4, after she told be her name, in which I just can’t remember, (how convenient, I know) anyway, when she told me
her name, I repeated her name, trying to sound it out, I got it the first time I think, she then said something like “that’s it” or “very
good” that’s all that happened and that I’ve been able to remember about that night.
The night before this happened; I had a different but common experience that has probably happened about………10 times now…..this is where whom
ever it is, (I expect the human looking ones to be the culprits) are lifting and taking me out of bed, very slowly, and taking me through the wall,
and as soon as my head goes through, I go into a dream state. This probably means they’re blanking out my memory, which sucks, because I don’t
remember every being able to recall an entire event…it is always parts and pieces that my memory jogs up 20-30 minutes after I wake up during the
morning. I’d be having breakfast, and then snap, oh #tt, all that stuff just happened last night…..then I’ll just sit down and try to remember
what I can.
I’ve now basically figured out why my memories are so muddled up, like dreams, and no, they’re not dreams, this is real # happening to me.
Essentially, when you dream, you’re using your sub-conscious part of your brain, which is being used 24 hours of the day, only it’s when you
sleep, that your sub-conscious takes over, because you’ve stopped using your conciseness to think, you’re –unconscious-.
Every second of every waking day, you absorb things around you, using your senses, eyes, ears, nose, taste, touch and of course your conscious
thinking, you analyse things observe, and take in information, all a dream is, is all those bits of information, being mumbled up together, trying to
assemble each other into the closest thing to what you naturally see as reality.
Say if you were to go at a circus, every day for a week, you’ll start dreaming about those events tangled up in a strange scenario, if you didn’t
know of the sky or how galaxies looked, or what that shape of a country was, you could imagine it, but you couldn’t dream it’s truth, only when
you analyse something your conciseness of reality can accept as true, can you dream of such a thing. Let’s say, you’re born, and for ten years,
there’s nothing but utter darkness, no light, no mass, just your conciseness.
All you’ve known you entire life is nothingness, every time you dream, nothing can be dreamt that you haven’t already seen, and so all you can
dream is utter darkness because you’ve never known anything else. You’ve never known people, ideas from learning, you’ve known nothing else but
this utter darkness, as a human conciseness, even though you may have the capacity to understand and analyse other things, there is nothing else too
understand, and so your growth of awareness cannot continue.
You can’t think to yourself, you don’t know how, what is there to think about, there’s been no information to show you how to think. When a
baby is born, it already has sounds to fill its brain with knowledge. You’re an empty box. Then suddenly a speck of light inters your world, your
life, everything for the past 10 years has been but one memory, this light, opens up a whole new world for you.
Suddenly [snip]….everything is new; this speck of light opens up your entire consciousness. Your dreams are now actual dreams, maybe no story, but a
hell of a lot of thinking starts to happen, your brain is rushing like never before, another speck, another, wtf do you do, all this information at
once, suddenly [snip]…..the world opens up, trees!, lakes!, mountains!, people,! Sounds, laughter and cries, the blowing of wind can be felt. You
dream, wooow, what a dream.
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