Originally posted by Viszet Oki
Since then, I refuse to go to college or work for a 'big' co. The whole thing is BS. I refuse to be trained to be the good little corporate worker
Oh believe me, I can relate. I currently have an office job, and the sheer lack of creative work drains my energy to ridiculously low levels. I am not
a worker bee. Never have been. But having said that, I am willing to give higher education another go, as I have identified my path, and to help
fulfill it, I could do with some more training.
Obviously, your situation is best known by yourself, but I would suggest that you don't totally rule out higher education. Often, its just a case of
finding what clicks with us, and you never know: you might find something, and it will just click with who you are. And if you do well, it will add
more to your skills, and possibly present a clearer path for you.
But I just don't care about making a lot of money. I feel like I'm above that??
Again, I can relate. Money matters little to me. Nice to have, don't get me wrong, but I am more concerned with other things, my thoughts, my ideas,
my politics, helping friends and allies. When it comes to money, I see it as a means to an end. Which is, imo, how we should all see it. I find people
who live for money rather hollow as humans.
I'm still confused about who or what I may be at the age of 26.
Again, I hear you. I don't know who I am exactly, or what my place is. I have always been a lone wolf of sorts, due to both childhood environments
and as a natural trait. But while I don't know exactly
what my path leads to, I have met people who have helped me to understand more about
the way I function in regards to others. Since reading The Celestine Prophecy
, I have learned to spot the people who appear in my life, serve a
purpose to help me, only to drift away when their task is done. And while some of them have helped me to find a way to express myself creatively,
others have helped show me what I am, where I can go. One guy in particular, I consider the big brother I never had. There is still a hole in my life
where he was.
I will say this though: I don't claim to be an Indigo, though I seem to meet the criteria - aside from the fact that I have no special mental
powers/gifts other than a gift for psychology, I have never met an Alien, I have never met a Demon, and I don't believe at all in the 2012 thing.
What I do have though is a thing for those who don't conform, but who are still decent people. I have an urge to help them, these Outsiders. Many of
them fit the criteria of an Indigo too, but I'll let you draw your own conclusions.
Am I an Indigo? I don't know. While it would be nice to have a little clarification as to my status, a badge doesn't mean as much to me as my
missions, my goals, my dreams, my friends and allies. Many who would claim to be Indigo I do find to be more focused on their need for a tag, rather
than the good they are supposed to perpetrate. But again, on the other hand, some of those people I have looked at are just as confused about
themselves as I once was, and are looking for a little clarification on their roles.
But I have this feeling of greatness inside of me. Like I want to liberate humanity or some weird @#$$. Delusions of grandeur? I just don't
know. Does any of this sound familiar to anyone? Or am I truly just crazy and completely alone on this planet?
Ha! I know EXACTLY what you are getting at regarding the whole save the world thing. I find though I look long and hard at the BIG picture, and feel
at a loss as to where to even start. Plus, I am the only one I know in Real World who thinks like I do. Which makes it kind of lonely actually, but I
know and talk to people online regularly who I know feel along similar veins to me, and that is a great comfort. Because you are not alone. You may
feel at times (and I know I do) that you am the only one who sees what you see, but you aren't.
Maybe it is delusions of grandeur. Some jokers here would probably make a crack about handing you a cape. Here's a thought though: maybe its an
ingrained desire to do good. Maybe it isn't a Superman Complex.