I reach out from the inside

I cannot communicate with you. You ignore me and rightly so. This living death I try and endure but every moment reminds me of you. I dreamed of you before we met, remember at weeona when we just walked out of the woods and were picking up the driftwood? I dreamed of it in January.

If I could fix the mistakes I made I would, but what has been done has been done. Now I am facing a life without you. If I didn't experience what we had I would not miss it. I have though...how do you go back to hell after walking in heaven holding an angels hand? I am trying to cope but its no good. I wish all the songs that remind me of you would disapear, but I hear them on the radio and crumble from the inside.

I finally had meaning to my life. That meaning seems to have slipped through my fingers. I try to grasp it but it is like sand, it sifts through and I am left empty.

Remember that night I sang this song to you with tears rolling down my jaded cheeks while it played on the radio?

Love I get so lost, sometimes
Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off in my car
But whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

All my instincts, they return
And the grand facade, so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
The light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
The resolution of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
The heat I see in your eyes

Love, I don't like to see so much pain
So much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

And all my instincts, they return
And the grand facade, so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
The light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
The resolution of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
The heat I see in your eyes



Where do I go from here? :bnghd:





[edit on 25-9-2007 by LoneGunMan]

[edit on 26-9-2007 by LoneGunMan]

Originally posted by LoneGunMan
Where do I go from here? :bnghd:

Forward, Hoss. You go forward. Yesterday's gone and tomorrow's a vague promise. There is only now. Live in the now. And remember the Serenity Prayer.

For whatever that's worth.

Originally posted by yeahright

Forward, Hoss. You go forward. Yesterday's gone and tomorrow's a vague promise. There is only now. Live in the now. And remember the Serenity Prayer.

For whatever that's worth.

Thank you my friend I nearly forgot how to do that. You have reminded me, and I will try.

You helped me snap out of it with this post. I will get my eye back on the ball.