reply to post by JEnigma
Since you have been so forthcoming in telling us (and me) about you, it seems only fair I return the favor. But first I want to say that your writing
in your initial piece is quite good. You certainly have talent for it. Keep writing. If not in here, then for other readers.
Let's choose an angle. I was a child of a single mother, still am. She had had a strict and rigid roman catholic upbringing, and being the rebelious
one in a family with nine children and little recourses, she received the condemnation of the Lord and her parents along with all the punishments that
were deemed appropriate. When she became a parent herself, she vowed to allow her children to make up their own minds as to what they chose to
believe. An impossible promise of course, but an admirable intention.
As a result, my sister and I were brought up relatively free of any religious dogma, but were rather instilled with a sense of weariness and suspicion
of any religion.
In the meantime, our mother began to experience a 'spiritual void' so to speak, and sought answers by reading all kinds of 'new age' literature.
We, her 'liberated' children, thought it to be strange and a bit suspicious, but since we were brought up in the spirit of free choice, our
inclination was to return the favor.
Anyway, one day she suggested for me to read one of these books, saying it was mighty complicated but fascinating. I shrugged because I really wasn't
into that spirit mumbo-jumbo at the time. But she insisted and I had time on my hands, so what the Hell, I started reading. The book was Seth Speaks
by Jame Roberts, and it is to this date the single most important book I have read in my entire life. After that I read almost all the books by Jane
Roberts and Seth. And then I left it alone for years and years.
Let me put this in a very tiny nutshell for you:
Remember, this was the 80's. The Secret (flawed theory btw) was non existant. Here was a book with a take on reality which turned everything upside
down. There was no seperation between God and creation, they were one! Suddenly, it was revealed that I am the creator of my reality, and if that
reality is #ty, it is because somehow, I've been taught to expect it to be that way, and reality is merely reflecting my expectations. I'm not the
product of my environment, my environment is my product!
That, at the time, was a huge topsy-turvy moment for me. At the same time, in my heart, it felt like the truth. It was a bit much for me to handle at
the time. One would think that knowledge like that could empower someone to boldly take control of one's life and be a demi-God in Paradise happily
ever after. Not so.
I had received the tools, the materials and the instructions, but for some reason, all this stuff was put on a shelf that said 'received in good
order' and then left alone. Sometimes, when it suited my needs, the dust was blown off it, and it was used to my benefit, mostly in the form of an
Edited to remove personal drug experience
From the Terms and Conditions...
2e.) Illegal Activity: Discussion of illegal activities; specifically mind-altering drugs, computer hacking, criminal hate, sexual relations with
minors, and stock scams are strictly forbidden.
You have a U2U
[edit on 9/9/07 by masqua]