reply to post by Tom Bedlam
Sure, tell your demon I said it was scurred little hairy # nugget of a parasite that it can come # with me if it wants to actually have some fun. I'm
sure you wouldn't try to antagonize it yourself, but i've particularly put it out there just begging for some "demon" to teach me my lesson, just so I
can have something to believe in..... and nothing ever comes to me, which for a nighttime-forest walker you'd think something might # with me, but
nu.
I've played with a ouiji board alone enough times, pretty much done allt he metaphorical "bloody marry in the pitch black bathroom" in any way I can
find. Which either leaves me wondering if there scared of me. Which to tell the truth all the general energy manipulation studying i've done, humans
shouldn't necessarily always be on the loosing end of any kind of fight. I'm just waiting for a poltergeist to throw some # around my room just to
remove a few kind of "doubts" in my head. To tell the truth.... it would be a blessing for me to see something in my room just levitate, fly across
the room and smash....... cause the moment I see that happen a little switch in my head would pop over and I'd likely become something quite
dangerous. Sadly I cannot logically feel 100% about anything that i've not seen/experienced for it self, thus I do not have the faith required. Used
to be the street lights only fluttered on and off at night when i'd go near them, which I didn't think much of, until recently when it started
happening during the day.
I really feel bad for those who are actually experiencing real occurrences of the paranormal, but at the same time you gotta wonder if people like me
can be so blatantly offensive towards those forces, and go completely unscathed despite putting themselves directly in the worst circumstances. I'm
not even all that religious, I take pride in how easily I can poke holes in there logic and incredibility. I always figured that it would make me an
easy target for the "demons" but then again..... I don't spend my entire life asking a god to fix the problems in the world and in my life..... I've
always been one with the "I can do whatever I put my mind to" mindset
As for all these personal experiences I keep reading about; girlfriend acting like a spaz after partying,gee did any drinking happen at party? I've
never been one to forget what happens on the nights that I drink heavily, but i know plenty of other drinkers that do, and usually they are the
"attention whore" types who of course do not want to admit acting like a childish twat when they were under the influence. And as for going to the
career "psychic"..... Idk..... the scientist in me just really wants to poke at all the different possibilities of fraud that go on..... to doubt that
people are capable of being able to pull of the stunts, and actually lie to straight to your face about stuff your actually having problems with.....
is just asanine and naive.
I really love the paranormal and anything close to it..... but there is now way I will let myself get pulled in based on what others have seen......
because I know my perception is never at its best, and because i've seen some creepy # that turned out to be nothing...... # happens
I remember when my mom told me about her "experiences" with the ouiji board, plenty of them were scary detailed stories..... of course later down the
road I got her to admit that she just made that # up. Pretty much I act like a twat just like that one dude from that fake movie paranormal activity;
if something random happened... I'd call it out tell it to confront me.... and nothing will ever happen, thus why I don't have to live scared like so
many people with "experiences" have to..... the monster under the bed will always be there if you never look, it won't be till you look that you'll
get any rest. People who prey on others generally tend to prey on those who cower and don't resist.
My life has been to enriched for me to even think that demons would # with me indirectly by just trying to # my life. Sure occasionally we have to fix
the car that I rape with my pizza delivery job..... but last time I checked I've managed to become surrounded by a great crowd of diverse yet similiar
friends, sickness barely does more than make my throat sore and my nose stuffy. I've even been lucky enough to have gone through life without a broken
bone despite all the sports/general stupid little kid # that I did. I could go on and on how life has managed to give me what I need, as I watch the
rest of the world #ting itself in self-destruction and mayhem (wars, floods, earthquakes, murder and rape of the innocent), but I think I've made my
point.
So for all of those who keep having to put up with malevolent forces, send em my way, whenever you see/hear something follow it up with "why are you
bothering me, why don't go bug that one kid that doubts and insults your existence". I used to be a nightwalker of a lot of placed normally considered
quite eerie.....either i'm being protected, I'm eminating a force of my own, or we are trully alone (physical beings anyways). XD i'm not even in my
oppinion worth protection by any "higher" beings, with all the things i've done and the rules i've broken.
Im kind of jealous that you guys are able to see something to give you faith in another plane of existence..... that something you should be
great-full of. Any who I'm good on speaking on my experiences and feelings on the topic. If anyone can give me a sure-fire way that can help me have
an actual experience, I would be eternally great-full and would be more than happy to try and compensate such a nice gesture by sharing any deep
revelations I would be certain to experience, or even a free gift via my leather crafting.
Sweet dreams and may your research help you find whatever you may be looking for.
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