posted on Oct, 21 2007 @ 06:20 AM
I have SP several times a year.
There are two different types. One comes on me while I am dreaming, and the other, I am dreaming, and then I wake up.
Both have the same elements though. A high pitches whining noise.. Much like the sound that you get from some TV stations when they shut down, but
higher, painfully high.
And of course, I can't move.
This is what I have found. If I am in the dream SP, I just go back to sleep, that sounds weird, but I know that I am asleep.
But the ones that happen when I am awake, those are completely terrifying. I can FEEL things around me. When I open my eyes, I can see faces leering
at me. Nothing is holding me, but I feel like they are trying to GET me. When I am able to break freeze, and turn the lights on, I can STILL see those
faces , and trust me when I say they move. If I look somewhere else, they are not there, but when I look in the area I saw them, I still see them,
slowly floating away.
Even if I try to ignore it, I can feel that whine screaming through my bones.
When I was little, I would try to holler and scream, and get someone to help me.
I once remember having it when I feel asleep in my mom's bed, and she was sleeping next t me.
I could feel her, I could hear her, and I have never forgiven her that she didn't come and save me.. That one was one of the rare ones in which I was
dreaming, and woke up, but the dream continued in my head, and there were werewolves coming for me.
Still, mom lost a lot of her hero status for me in that one incident.
I am a side sleeper, or a belly sleeper. I have found that if I am sleeping on my right side, and I start having them several times a week, then it is
time to switch to my left side, until I start having them on my left side.
What is interesting is that I can't recall having any on my belly, though I have had the START of one, which is the high pitched whine coming towards
me. I would then turn my head from the right to left, or reversed, and it would go away.
How I break out of it.. I have a mantra. I say the Lord's Prayer several times.
What it interesting is that the whining noise gets louder and more painful as I recite it, even though I am only saying it in my head.
That could be a subconscious thing. I recall reading somewhere once that a witch can't say the Lord's Prayer without stumbling over it, and that if
I stumble while saying it, even in my head, that will open me up to whatever is trying to get me.. and this is how I feel, like something is trying to
get me, and WAITING for me to fail.
Then as I am saying the Lord's Prayer, I concentrate all my energy into one finger. if I can move that finger, or at least THINK I can, (I am well
aware of the mechanics of SP), then I gather myself and JERK myself awake.
At this point, my heart is racing, and I am trembling, and my ears are hurting from the gut wrenching NOISE, and like I said, I can SEE faces looking
at me, leering at me, and moving away from me, and they are angry faces.
They are there, even when I turn the light on.
I have gotten to the point where I sleep with music or the TV on. It helps a great deal to have background noise. I believe it makes it harder for
them, whatever they are to find me.
I HAVE had SP with the music or the TV on, but usually I just can't move. There is no screaming whining noise. There are no faces, there is no
feeling of fear. When that happens, I can hear the music, or the TV program, and I might even listen to it for a while, but usually I just say forget
it, and go back to sleep, or say, hey great, lucid dreaming time, and slip back into a dream state where I am making things happen consciously.
I have had those kinds of instances where I DID come up out of my sleep, just enough to know what was going on around me, where I could have woken up
if I chose, and chose instead to have fun dreaming.
Here is one last interesting thing.
I was visiting my mom, and she fell asleep in her chair. I hear her going help help, but not loudly at all, and not clearly, and I called out to her
several times, and she woke up..
She was having an SP episode. And she swore there was something trying to get her.
I know that isn't so, I am sensitive to certain things, and there was nothing there. At the same time, excepting that one instance, EVERY SP episode
I have ever had, I was alone.