posted on Jan, 14 2004 @ 12:18 AM
Lend A hand..hmm, does it have something to do with an old cult magazine printed in the 1800's or something?
I'm not sure, but I'd love for you to explain.
Why did I decide to join the Masons?
This is a tough question really.
I was brought up in a very Catholic family. The only person not Catholic in my family is my mother of whom suffers a great deal of long lasting
horrible memories of her private school growing up.
Over the years I have always felt a calling. Since my first confession (4 hours long mind you) at the age of 17, I felt very much so that I was being
called into the priest hood. The questions that stirred in my mind and soul were constantly forcing me into awkward directions.
A year ago, I didn't even know what the Masons were. I met a guy in a bar who swore I was a Mason based solely on my personal theories and beliefs.
He was just entering into his EA degree at the time and once I convinced him I wasn't a Mason, he explained I needed to look into it. so, I did. and
ended up here amongst many other places.
My mother is partially psychic, and myself..well, I guess you can say I am some abnormal abilities or at least, my sensory perception is a bit higher
than average. I studied sorcery as a young lad and was scared right back out of it. All in the search for answers while guided by curiousity.
To try and sum up what could turn into a very lengthy post, I decided to join the Masons because I believe that if there is any form of truth in this
world, portions of it may be found within the walls of Lodge if I look hard enough and pay attention. Not to what I am told, but by what my spirit
tells me as things are being presented.
If I were to reach a point where my feelings of what is going on are not to better myself as a man, then I won't remain involved.
I know some of you are sick of hearing this but...my great grandfather was a 33rd degree Mason, however, on his death bed, he asked to become Catholic
again. I still wonder why...
My aunt knew nothing of the Masons until I explained my intent on joining. Well, by then, she was a Freemasonry scholar who began telling me how I
shouldn't sell my soul.
This is the way I see it... I believe that God will judge me based on the lives and souls I touch in a positive way. I believe my soul is safe so long
as I never lose that which makes me me. I don't think that searching for answers is going to be an act of offering up my soul in exchange for wordly
power and wealth unless I create that essence around myself.
In otherwords, I believe that the force and power of Masonry can be used for either good or evil and if there is a high ranking order of Masons who
use what is offered to benefit themselves in an evil way, it doesnt mean I need to be a part of them.
A gun is a very powerful tool used by man for many reasons. It's not the gun that decides its use, its the person utilizing its power who decides if
that power is used to serve and protect, or assassinate and murder.
Oh, and I am also looking forward to the food!!
I hope this long drawn out ramble doesnt bore anyone to tears. It's late, Im sleepy and my demons, I mean, sheets are begging me to go see them.
I hope this at least explains a little of why I am joining the Masons.