My heart would beat rapidly to the point that I was in a state of shock when I awoke from these night terrors. They felt like my mind was just going
into some sort of warp hole into another dimension and the more I "challenged" this "descent" (hard to explain) the lower it would go and I was
convinced at the bottom was death from shock and each time I would get these night terrors I would try to take it further "down" but would give up
and wake up in the most terrified states of shock. One time they called the hospital because when I woke up my aunt took my pules and it was at
dangerous levels.
Furthermore, throughout my teenage years I would often have dreams of night skies filled with darting lights i.e. UFO's. I didn't want to use the
term UFO because I never exactly saw a giant metallic ship but rather recurring dreams of night skies and lights moving around in the sky and always a
feeling of either dread or the feeling that "something big is coming" to this world, some kind of big change etc, these sort of hard to explain
feelings always pervaded those types of dreams.
I also began to dabble in psychic studies and was convinced I had at least some psychic powers. I spoke to psychics and one in particular I spoke to
on the internet claimed that she could tell I was "one of them" and that "they" know that I could "hear" them and that's why they are tuning
into me and sending me messages. She claimed that they could not figure out why some of us could "hear them" and not the rest of the world and that
is why they were interested in me. To this day that conversation sort of haunts me but I don't buy into it much anymore, it's just something I sort
of keep on the back burner I suppose.
I spent my teenage years sleeping through every single night in terror and dread, often feeling presences in the night/dark and having lurid
dreams.
The most disturbing experience of my lifetime, that actually happened in my home country occurred when I was small before we left, I saved it til now
to tell this story because it fits better with the talk of et's than it does of ghosts I think.
Anyway, the story goes (and this has been a great mystery to me since my childhood), I was one day (around age 4-6) in a department store near our
house with my mother (or so I recall). I was separated from her briefly and was walking towards the employer's only section that I recall having a
distinct sign that says do not enter. I remember it being a dark hallway and I remember being curious and entering it.
Upon entering it, the very next thing I recall is standing next to an old couple (man and woman) in the middle of what seemed like the sky. The couple
each grabbed me by opposing hands and suddenly we were flying through the sky and the clouds. I recall that they for some reason repeatedly tickled me
as we flew through the clouds and possibly giggled or laughed and I remember the tickling to be somewhat uncomfortable or painful.
The VERY next thing I remember is standing in a different far away aisle on the opposite end of that department store as if I just appeared there. I
found my mom and we left.
To this day that experience has haunted me and the greatest question I have always wanted the answer to now that memory is disappearing into the
depths of time is, did that really happen or is it some sort of distant memory of a dream or fantasy that I had like many children have who claim
they levitated and flew around as kids.
Now to get back to the future.
Like I said throughout my teens I was convinced I was something "special" and different from everyone else. A few other interesting experiences
occurred. For example in my mid teens before I got braces I had to get about 4 teeth pulled simultaneously.
After getting them pulled I returned home and was home alone for the rest of the afternoon as I took the day off from school. My mouth was bleeding
profusely and I remember the pain being pretty excruciating. (continued in next post)

