It doesn't matter so much what
you become so much as that you focus on becomming as opposed to trying to change others. This is what causes
conflict. This is what causes hopelessness.
I've chosen anarchy as my life-style. I've chosen to be
that. Not to take up the cause
of anarchy and focus on overthrowing authority.
That's only an attempt to change others. But if I focus on being
an anarchist, being
an independent thinker and doer then I am being
something truly usefull to my fellow man.
I am developing my own spirituality, my own life skills, my own trade, my own answers, my own philosophy about human relationships. I am becomming a
complete and self-sufficient human being in all ways. That is my contribution to the world.
I've read three of the CWG books cover to cover. (Friendship with God, Communion with God and Conversations with God Book 2).
You might want to take a look at The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. He has learned to live completely and totally in the present. To accept each
present moment as it is without judgement or resistance. This is what I am learning how to do, slowly but surely.
I have an inkling of what it's like to be able to do that totally and completely. When you relinquish the strangle-hold that your left brain,
analyticle mind has on life and subordinate it to your creative right brain, you open up a goldmine of opportunities for expressing who you are.
That's because your logical mind is goal-oriented. You don't want to set the goal of expressing who you are. That sucks. Goals suck. They suck the
enjoyment out of what you are doing and expressing right now. If I had the goal of finishing this post, it would kill my enthusiasm to make it in the
first place. But as it is, I am expressing myself. My fingers are flying across the keyboard and I am energised, enthusiasticly expressing what I
To a person who isn't quite used to doing this, it's a bit like learning to pet your head and rub your tummy at the same time. It's a type of
mental dexterity that has to be learned through use. Children have it automatically but it gets trained out of us at school and at work. Just ask a
child to draw something and they won't even think twice. Ask an adult to do the same thing and they don't have the first clue what to do.
It's a phase you have to move through when you start retraining yourself to live in the present. You are wrestling for control with your
goal-oriented mind and learning to replace it with your process-oriented, creative mind.
When you do this, every moment is vibrant and alive. Blood courses through your veins and color comes back in your face. You sit back and meditate,
letting the pictures flow through your mind effortlessly, stimulating new and creative ideas where once you used to sit and stew and try to come up
with an idea untill you gave up in frustration.
It's what causes writers block. It's what causes people to have difficulty with relationships. It's what causes people to have social problems.
When you are in one of those situations you have to imagine not what you want to accomplish
but what you want to be
. If, while suffering
from writers block you want to recapture that creativity you had before you starting focusing on word-count, deadlines, marketing, writing an article
in order to pay the bills and all the other details that drag you down and suck the marrow out of your bones with each sentence you write, then you
have to imagine how you want to feel about writing as opposed to how you currently feel.
Do you want to feel burdened with all these responsibilities that are literally exhausting you? That make you start to yawn even though you may have
been wide awake before? Do you want to feel the way I've described earlier? Energised. Ideas flying through your head faster than you can keep up.
Crazy possibilities. Shades of different emotions that you want to express between the lines of what you are writing. Then focus on that. Focus on
that. The means will become self-evident. Just remember what it is you want to be
and concentrate on that. Forget about all those
little details. All those little goals. Be the custodian of your mind. Sweep out all those little goal thoughts as soon as they come in and continue
being that person with the creative and dynamic imagination. Continue focusing on how that feels.
Do it every single minute. Literally do it every single minute.
You don't need a self-help book. You don't need a twelve step program for ressurecting your creativity. That would just make it into a further
mental abstration, lifeless and dry. Lethargic. Intellectual.
This doesn't just apply to writers block, of course. It applies to life. You metamorphasize from the inside out by inwardly focusing on what you want
to be. You burst with energy. You meet certain people and build up a network, a self forming group of people with similar interests and goals to your
own. And by the law of synergy where the whole is greater than the sum of its parts, you can accomplish unbelievable things.
You might get side-tracked by success and start focusing on goals again. Then what used to be your passion will become a chore and a burden again.
Some people stay at this phase for the rest of their lives. They shribble and become a shadow of the success they once were. Others learn to snap out
of it and get back in the game.
I am currently studying A Course in Miracles. I am focusing on the process, on being
a miracle worker. I am not making it a goal for some time
in the future. The course itself, after you finish studying it's theoretecal foundation, is designed to take a year to complete. But I am focusing on
it every day as if it were
today that I was learning it.
I am constantly trying to percieve the world from the right-brain perspective. I am constantly reminding myself to live in the present. To ask myself
what my creative mind is telling me. To consider no moment to be an ordinary moment. To rush through nothing and to savour something about every
experience. Especially the ones that are unbearable because those are the ones that have something to teach.
That's what is meant by "What you accept, you can use." But "what you resist, persists" because you don't use it so it just continues being a
problem each time you encounter it.
Anyway, that's pretty much everything I have to say for now, except for this link to a post I made in another forum that some of you might find