I know that sounds like weird but hear me out....
Since about the summer of 2002 (i can't remember if it definatly was 2002, but it wasn't much earlier or later) I've had a really weird tick...
I'll blink really hard uncontrollably and my face will spasm with it (almost into a smile.. but i scrunch my eyes up really right and my mouth turns
into a really wide idiotic grin...) at one point it was so bad i was doing it every second of everyday nearly, it's calmed down a bit over the years
but it's still there - now it's developed a bit further and sometimes i'll push my tongue up just after i've spasmed with my eyes and i'll try to
breath out of my nose but i won't be able to...
There had been occasions before 2002 where I'd periodically start to blink really hard without my control, but it would go away.
I say without control... I can stop it but when i do i have to really fight the urge which is why im beginning to think its tourettes (I origionally
thought it was because of a caffien overdose after drinking 20 cups of coffee in a day).
Can anyone help me, it's really bugging me now to what's causing it because it makes me feel like an idiot sometimes. I know I should go to the
doctors but i feel i go too much for other stuff (I have problems with my knee's).
I'll also add that it does get worse with stress, which adds to me thinking it's tourettes... but is it possible it starts so late in life (I would
have been 13 then i think) I always had the idea most people developed it in early childhood...?
Also I do have some self destructive beheivour, which i've heard can be linked aswell
- I pull my eye lashes out constantly - once until i had none left either eye
- I pull my eyebrows out because i cannot bear to feel them prickle, but i cant stop touching them to avoid them prickling me
- I bite my nails because i cannot bear to feel them and i cut my toe nails down so i can't feel them
- I will often get over stressed for no reason and will beat my legs or bite my arms
- I will snap me hair if i see dead ends or it doesn't fit the rest of my head (e.g. too thick to feel).
Someone please help me
I found a site with some non 'official' symptoms that often occur in tourettes sufferers
- Sleeping for too long or insomnia - I will sleep for about 13 hours at a time if not forced to get up, even if I have gone to bed at a reasonable
- Tactile Hypersensitivity - 5 out of the 13 patients with Tourette Syndrome mentioned they had this symptom. Some of them couldn't stand the feel
of hair on their skin. Clothing tags are a nuisance. They cannot wear synthetic material or wool. Pure cotton undergarments seem to be the only
acceptable alternative and a couple of women go bra-less because they are too uncomfortable otherwise. There seems a higher than normal level of
allergies to things like detergents and cheap metal jewelry. Even the thought of touching chalk makes some of them squirm. Often a person with this
symptom will feel suddenly itchy all over, for no discernable reason. This itchiness can be triggered by watching seeing a biting insect, seeing
someone else scratch, and even talking about scratching or itches.
(i suffer from these quite dramatically, it can be quite embaressing in a
public place when i have to scratch my face constantly or my arms)
- Residual Consequences - may include: Low Self-Esteem; Frustration; Depression; Social Withdrawal - in the 1800's a 90 year old woman, the Marquise
de Dampierre, had withdrawn from social contact for 70 years, due to this disorder - Impaired Relationships; Anger; Oversensitivity; Discouragement;
Feelings of being crazy, bad, stupid, rejected, unloved, hopeless. Impaired ability to understand or appropriately respond to others; Self-Injurious
Behaviours and Eating and Sleeping Disorders.
I know these are not definate symptoms but i find it odd that I also suffer from these a lot. Also when I was a child I had no friend because I would
become agressive during confrontation - In one occasion I kicked a younger boy smaller than me in a rather sore area (if you'll forgive the pun) so
hard he had to go to the doctors because he laughed at me, also I once started spitting at people from a high area because I thought they where all
against me... I was taken to the doctors at this point but he saw nothing wrong with me. This agressive beheivour isn't as bad these days but I have
a habit of hitting people I am close to for no reason because it feels like i should (same kind of feeling as the tic in my face)
I'll also say over the past year or so I've found it harder to concentrate on things, I'll forget what im saying mid sentace if someone interupts
me - or more often than not I'll start thinking about something else and forget what im saying. I'll also often zone out during some lessons and
even as try as I might all i can do is doodle... but maybe that's because Blake isn't the most exciting poet
. I also have a fear of talking to
people on the phone because i get so confused talking to people on them, i'v just started to combat it but it's getting ridiculous... I wouldn't
even ring my boyfriend for the first 8 months of our relationship.
I also have an irrational fear of big things in the sea... but maybe I'm just crazy lol '-_-...
Anyway, if you can be bothered to plough though my length post it would be a great help!
[edit on 4/4/07 by FudgeStix]