posted on Mar, 22 2007 @ 07:51 PM
I had quite a heart palpitation today, felt like a lot of anger was being released...Felt great afterwards. I had to sleep for a few hours and pop a
excedrin to deal with the pain...
Blackops, as Streetcorner stated you must find your happiness within...Take a vacation or something and spend some time meditating and thinking about
what really makes you happy. You DO NOT have to sit in a cubicle to earn a living. I have completely rejected that lifestyle as there is little wiggle
room for creativity. I feel most alive in nature and when I am not worried about meeting other people's standards of living.
We are all different mind you, and must behave appropriately. This does not mean we won't agree on certain things, but you must act for yourself and
no one else. It is important to put yourself first and let others take a backseat for a while.
Don't feel bad for being selfish in the sense of figuring out you're own priorities. Be honest with yourself. If you don't like the way your life
is going, CHANGE IT! I am not necessarily happy with the area I live in right now, but once schools out I am peacing out of here for good (at least I
plan on it).
The sacredness of life will come back to you when you realize everything around you is conscious. The trees, animals, even the water you drink has a
pulse (not a heartbeat, but a living, breathing SPIRIT). Reconnect with nature and you may in fact find yourself.
The natives of this continent have something called a DREAMQUEST. It is when you go into nature and fast for a few days and attempt to find your True
Self. You will only be able to find the real you if you take the time to listen.
Those words that float in and out of our head may sometimes seem selfish, which is typically the ego. However, the consciousness behind that, the
observer who understand that these thoughts are not "ME," but merely a small part...That is who you are. The ONE of the universe, able to manifest
whatever you so chose to. You must have the focus and willpower, which is inside yourself in order to find happiness...
I know what you say about lost souls...I see many drones and robots everyday who don't know who they are or where they're going, but still seem to
rush about in whatever business they're taking care of. It's quite sad in fact, to live life, but not have a reason to live...
You will find your purpose my friend. On some level you already have. You've taken the first step in admitting that parts of your life make you
miserable and you are willing to take responsibility for your actions. Great job!
Now it is time to find out what you really want, and start living life your way. Don't ignore your passion because your wife calls you crazy, do it
and tell her you love her anyway. She will either accept you for who you are, or move on. You will know that this is for the best anyway...
No, no, no my friend. You can not be a downer. A spiritual person means they are calm in the face of adversity. It does not mean we are saints; far
from it actually. Spiritual means being in touch with oneself. By being honest with yourself, you have made great progress today. You will be able to
continue this path if you remain honest, which I can feel you will be!
You are already found!
Streetcorner is right: you must search, make mistakes, have fun while doing it too! This life is merely a game to help the Great Creator understand
who He/She/It is and LOVE every little party of IT!
There is no such thing as good/bad, it is merely our perception. Shift your perception, and you shift your reality!
Sorry about the long post, but I hope it was of some help friends.
Carry on my wayward son, there'll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don't you cry no more!