I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through. Please consider counseling go by yourself if he refuses. Also, you might consider going back to
school. You can get your degree online through many different schools. Suceeding in school will give you a sense of confidence as well as job
skills. When you feel confident it will show and can only help your marriage. He will have to take action if he wishes to regain your trust but you
also have to be willing to let him earn it. Saying I'm sorry only counts if you avoid committing the same offense over and over again. Be very very
clear to him that you will not tolerate any further cheating or lying and make the consequences of those actions clear and be ready to follow through.
Most important however, remember you have the right to be happy but only you can make you happy. Your husband is not responsible for your happiness
Best of luck. I'll pray for you.