Originally posted by LovingSoul
I was anorexic in my teens and it has had a lasting physical effect on me. I started out wanting to get fit and healthy and then went downhill from
there. Within a month or two I was down to drinking about 6 litres of cola every day (for the caffeine and sugar energy) but ate absolutely nothing.
For about 3 months I lived on this diet. I could not put anything solid into my mouth as it would make me want to vomit. I could drink liquids as
this did not have to touch my lips or my teeth. I still can't eat anything with lumps in it, like chunky soup, or anything with pips in it, the pips
first need to be removed. I am 1.5m tall (haven't grown since my anorexia) and weighed (at the time of the anorexia) about 28kgs - now, almost 20
years later, I still only weigh 32kgs despite eating like a horse! I struggle daily to ensure that I eat enough to sustain my body as my body no
longer stores fat and everything just passes straight through me. I had been on a weight-gain regime for over a year and have gained some and lost
some but am unable to get my weight up to the 40kg mark. My bones are not strong due to the "malnourishment" all those years ago and I have a
stomach ulcer from drinking all that cola and the digestive acids eating my empty stomach. I have 4 to 5 meals a day - toasted sandwiches, pasta,
lots of icecream and chocolate and cookies and loads of vegetables - but am still unable to gain weight. I now also drink a weight-gain milkshake to
try to keep the kilos on. I am still terrified of getting really fat but I can't live with the thinness anymore as I have constant bruising down the
side of my legs from sleeping (my bones cut into my flesh when I sleep on my side) and I can't sit comfortably either. Anyway, just wanted to give
my two cents worth. This problem is not one of "mental health" as such but more with self-image. You will never understand until/unless you've
Thank you LovingSoul
for posting that, I was hoping to get someone that personaly knew what it is like. Yes it does start out as a desire to
get fit and healthy but then it becomes a habbit then an obsession, and thus a mental health disorder.
This also as you pointed out becomes a health problem. As the body becomes unable to recognise food for what it is anymore and has "learned" to live
off of a certan amout of calories to maintain itself then throws everything else away. I remember the first day my ex decided to go on this "diet"
as she explained it, it went down like this.
She was sitting in a parking lot of her work waiting for the office to open for the day when she saw a rather obeise woman walk across the parking
lot. As she describes it the woman labored to take each and every step and was constantly out of breath. Then she saw a thin woman walk across the
parking lot and noticed that she seemed to float along and not have any trouble.
She called this her apiphany and from that day on she was bound and determined to loose the weight that had haunted her sense she was pregnant with
Now just to clarify a bit I loved my wife I did not care at all that she was heavy I realy didnt. And not understanding what she was doing to herself
I actualy suported her decision to go down this path. I told her if it made her happy then to do it, cause all I wanted for her was that she would be
At first she started eating only 1000 calories a day, the weight started coming off, and this encoraged her more. The further allong she got with her
research she would eat less, till she was down to eating only 300 calories per day. She found a pro ana blogring community on xanga and started a diet
journal. The women on this site were all encoraging each other in this quest of the perfect body. Acording to medical professionals the ideal weight
for a woman my wifes height and age is about 140 pounds +/- she went a bit further and decided her goal weight would be 120 pounds.
As time went allong she would hit plateus (points of time when her body would not shed any more wight) and this would frustrate her imensly. she would
cut back on calories even more and she began taking exlax to try and get more weight to drop.
I noticed a stark and unsettling chainge begin to apear in her personality. She became quite negitive with me, and she would start leaving the house
and be gone all weekend long. I could guess that this may have been my fault because I began reading her posts on her blog and it was starting to
She became very frustrated that the weight was not comming off fast enough and she became bulimic to try and speed things up even more. She began to
loath herself so badly that she even started to cut herself. This is the point when I seriously started to worry and I started to encourage her to
seek help. I was very scared about what she was doing to herself and I even talked to a couple of poliece officers to see if she needed to be put away
for a while to get treatment.
In Florida there is a law called the Baker Act if you feel that someone is a danger to themselves you may request law inforcement to take them into
custody and take them to a psyciatric hospital for a 72 hour evaluation.
Again yes this is a problem mainly with westernized civilization as our culture encourages women to look as thin as possible and shows that as being
Sorry to dissapoint you DCP
but my ex never excercized at all. and this weight loss occoured in less thain a years time. you realy don't want
to see the other pictures that my ex took of herself they realy arn't apropreate for ATS and so I ddint post them but believe me they are not pretty.