posted on Feb, 5 2007 @ 03:37 PM
This is the third time i've tried to write this post. I'm having difficulty because there is so much I want to say regarding this particular topic.
Here goes my third attempt.
I began dreaming consciously in middle school. I won't go into the details of how, as I may post that separately at a later time, but the methods I
researched and eventually used did help me attain my lucid dreaming ability. Keeping a dream journal is of paramount importance, as it teaches your
brain to remember the dreams it had. The next steps are difficult only because you really need to keep the distractions down. A great meditation
session can be ruined by something as insignificant as a creak, an itch, the need to cough, etc. It can be frustrating, but patience will get you
where you need to be.
Once I was able to block out ALL distractions, it was very simple to be aware of my dreaming while in the midst of it. The jump from awareness to
involvement, however, did take nearly one full year before I was able to confidently influence my dreams. I had a good time with all of this for a
number of years, and some very starnge things came about. Following are some of the strange situations that ensued after this new-found talent was
put into use.
1. In highschool, i had a dream "starring" this girl i had a crush on. In my dream i asked her to mention the weather the next day if she liked me
like i liked her. The next day she failed to mention the weather in the respect that i thought she would. Instead she mentioned this dream she had
where i was asking her what the weather was going to be like tomorrow.
2. The first dream of my girlfriend Jacqueline after she killed herself, in which we were holding hands and walking, but i was unable to look at her
face. In every single dream from this point forth, I was able to do ANYTHING except see her face, no matter how hard i tried.
3. Also involving Jacqueline was a dream where i was living in a house my mom thought was haunted, a trivial sort of haunting that only served to lend
some character to the house. I saw an apparition glide across the hallway floor, past my bedroom door. The last time i was able to catch her at the
end of the hall at the top of the stairs. Normal looking girl, beautiful dress. I was able to find out that she was waiting for her date to pick her
up for the winter festival dance. Then, quite suddenly, i felt like the girl i was looking at was no longer an element of my consciousness, but a
separate entity. She had been looking down the stairs before this, and when this occured she looked at me. I was standing inside my bedroom door
looking down the hall at her. She told me she loved me, called me by name, then walked down the stairs where she dissapated. I had such a strong
impression that this was my ex girlfriend that i was unable to get to sleep for the rest of the night.
4. Several experiences after #3 where I was in the middle of my sleep meditation, and suddenly felt absolutely filled with this raw energy, and my
brain went from a total blank slate to everything Jacqueline. Every muscle tense, back arched off the bed, eyes clenched shut, fists clenched,
Jacqueline Jacqueline Jaqueline filling my mind, then nothing. I also felt like the room was bright white, even though it was in total darkness.
After some of these experiences, things started to change. I found that i was unable to wake up in the morning, and sometimes would lay in bed for up
to thirty minutes in a state that i can only describe as paralysis. My brain was wide awake, i could hear everything, i could feel the breeze, just
couldn't get my body to obey me. That was a very scary sort of thing, and caused me to stop consciously dreaming.
I probably only remember about half of my dreams at this point, and while I am unable to control them anymore, I am always aware that i am dreaming
while i am dreaming. I would very much like to get into it again.