My friend may respond, but I wanted to say this - stop watching videos (OK, maybe just "those" videos - and I don't mean porn).
Actually, once you've seen one you've seen them all. And it's not important to pursue those things too much. There are people who have that job.
I can see how easy it is to get on a track and just devour everything, but that particular conspiratorial stuff - that situation - is going to get
taken care of.
Dwelling on these things begins as being titillating, then becomes sensational, then informational, but after time becomes an obsession, and then
begins to do damage instead of enlightening you.
Garbage in, garbage out sort of applies here. What you put in your mind - what fuel you put in it - is what it runs on, and getting too deep in the
conspiratorial stuff like the baddies that are running things from behind the scenes can be depressing, and take away the light and life you had when
you were first intrigued by the material.
Get out. Breathe some fresh air. Listen to some music. And leave the conspiracy stuff for a while.
Most of all, focus on the good stuff. Like the fact that we are going to see those individuals brought out into the light of day, and we will have an
opportunity to choose their fate. And this is going to come about with help from humans who have been "out there".
Let things take care of themselves, because they are going to. Have faith and be patient.