From another perspective...
I'm not suffering schizophrenia in any shape or form but I routinely talk to myself and yes I even answer myself. Sometimes, especially if I'm doing
cognative practice I HAVE to do commentary. I walk myself what most pepole would consider trivial issues. I have severe anxieties but have done so
much practice that it's second nature to just start verbalizing what I'm doing, thinking and WHY...
Yeah I bore myself with it if I think about it I suppose
Most people have a little voice that comments. Even on Mundane things. As I understand from life with my brother early on is that in his mind the
commentary is not his but someone else's. He's not consciously making comment. But he really is...just the way his mind interprets this normal event
is a bit different.
Like me with my fears/phobias. All based in NORMAL fear but my mind exacerbates them...turning them into a whole new "animal".
I believe there is the ability to hear things not privvy to one's own mind. Do I think that it's possible 24/7 - 365? No. If and when it does happen
I think it's a one off event and usually between people who are spiritually and emotionally close...well loved relatives for example. I have a best
friend and at least once a month I hear her...usually just a word maybe two and she hears me. We do converse when it happens...sometimes though we're
both just full of imagination! When I called her last week to ask if she said, Dammit in french...it wasn't her...I thought about what I was doing
and tried to trace back the thought and I'd actually had the radio on CBC and my mind heard something and repeated it...even though I wasn't really
I encourage you to keep learning about the Shaman and about the spiritual aspects as you are doing, but also to keep doing what you just did
now...ponder the possibility that they are in your mind and NOT from anywhere else.
I didn't really have a point I guess...likely just repeating what you already know and understand about yourself and your illness. Voices in your
mind are to a degree normal...I'm sure you've learned when to question them through therapies you've had or things you've read up on.
I don't hear erroneous voices I get erroneous feelings of fear...all generated in the same space between my ears as your's
As a spiritual person also suffering a mental illness I can totally see where and why you are questioning. The spiritual side is such uncharted
grounds and LOL it may seem akin to an illness in it's own right...trying to separate the two is a challenge. you want to treat the illness but not
lose the spiritual knowledge and experience not to mention the beliefs... hard to know when and where to draw that line and it'll be drawn in a
different spot for each person.
Anyway, keep questioning and looking inward.
Sorry I tend to ramble...