posted on Sep, 10 2006 @ 02:17 AM
Yes BH did insult my parents. And she does have power issues. And I do agree with what I said before. She was mean to me in the way of a
head-strong, spirited woman full of drama issues is. I wish she wouldn't have brought up my personality. I would have liked it if she did focus on
the issue at hand. But since she did, she'll have to deal with me. Unfortunately, she can be a controlling and occupying force on a thread of a
person "who scares the crap out of her". So, if I "scare the crap out of her", she should start her own thread with her own mutual adoration
Believe her. I don't give a damn. It truly doesn't affect me in any way if you do.
I can't help it if she's tarnished her own image of being the "flower of tolerance" around here. She should have done more to preserve her
attitude of being kind and open to others if she cared so much. But she doesn't. And I'm sick of having this tug of war with her daily. I
apologize to our mutual friends because I care about them. But, this issue will have to be solved. And if others don't want to be mediators in this
mess, then step out of the way.
Now, adios, FlyersFan and jsobecky. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.
I apologize, West Point, and I'm sorry to see you go, but we need people who will learn the lesson that there are some posters of color who will
fight back against their aggressors. And there are many of us that do not back down to the demands of others on this board even with your threats to
leave. If you must, goodbye. I did enjoy talking to you.
But you are not the only white member on this board. There are plenty of others. And there are a whole lot of people of color on this board too.
And I'm waiting to speak to all of them. Just because you and your small mob rule leaves does not mean that the thread will close. It will go on
without you here. And perhaps it will be better and more fulfilling because the lot of you will be finally gone for good.
You and your cohorts are not the sum and total of 60,000 members of this entire board.
You all came here with your own volition. You leave with your own volition. I will go on regardless of your petty threats. I will continue to talk
about race and educate those I can. And those who don't like my style? Too damn bad.
The political can be intellectual. But the political can also be personal as well. There is room for both on this thread.
For the others who still have the guts to talk this thing out:
Educate us about anti-White racism. Teach us why it isn't good and explain to us about it.
Then, teach us something good about White culture such as people(Dr. Jonas Salk and Mother Theresa). Or explain an event (such as the abolitionist
movement or the Freedom Riders) that whites have done to benefit all of us. Change our minds. Make the rest of us care.
If you keep on telling us Blacks that we receive handouts, are ignorant, cry out racism at every turn and only empathetic when we assimilate, you get
exactly what you deserve: a whole lot of misunderstanding and frustration. And you'll have to stare into that same mirror.
My thread is not Iraq. I will not let you all "occupy" it so you can take it over with your own concerns. This thread is for everyone on ATS. And
since this thread is for "everyone" on ATS, I am included since I am a member. I deserve to have a thread of my own and participate in it just as
you do. I do not deserve to be threatened when the posters do not like something just as you don't.
But if you must....
Why concern yourself with the thread of a little Black woman like me? In the scheme of things and in the plethora of issues, you all have had the
choice to go whereever you wanted. You still do. You also have the power to take on this hard mantle of trying to see things get better on your own.
You also have a right to complain. And perhaps I will get the punishment you think I truly deserve. And if I do get punished for fighting back, my
punishment will be well-received as a mark of pride and triumph. I will hold my head up high for not cowering down to any of you.
You may think I'm a racist. But I don't give a damn if you do. I know I'm not. And I will always have a coterie of friends from all colors,
cultures and backgrounds whether you are a part of it or not. I always have. I always will. Your judgment of whether I am racist or not does
not affect me in the least bit.
In the end, naming someone a "racist" is not why these talks need to take place. This is not a place to burn people at the stake. But some
people made it that way. They can only be responsible for their own behavior for that.
I'm still polite to most people. And I do my best to be pleasant. But if I'm not pleasant to you, there is a real reason behind it. And that it
is up to you to find it out. And for those I've tried my best to apologize to, they've failed on their end and seem not to be sorry about it. I
shrug and move on unless they demonstrate their remorse. I'd be willing to talk things over again.
Believe me. This is not for laughs. I did not expect this when I started this thread. I was only trying to explore my feelings after such a heated
mess in the Mitt Romney thread. In a way, I'm not sorry I started this thread. I'm only sorry that I didn't get more of a variety of folks
culturally and racially to participate who have different perceptions to think about this. I especially want our international folks to drop on by
this thread and discuss it out. This issue is not only for Americans. It's for everyone. And I had hoped for more members of color to be here to
help Harlem Hottie and myself tell our sides of the story. I hope they still come.
With you all gone, hopefully, the thread will attract more even-tempered, polite and gracious people instead. Or else, it might be better to let
dg's words ring true: the thread will die a graceful death by ending this issue on race. The discussion will end to some posters' sighs of relief.
And then, one of you will bring it up again instead of myself.
Then, I'd be free to work on my blog and discuss the Mayan Calendar or the latest politics.
But I still don't hate white people. I am not angry at them. And I do not blame them for your actions. I still love everyone. And I am willing to
fight for the least of us.
And I would be the last to blame the least of us for the discrimination and the derision they get on a daily basis.You might. But I won't.
For I rather talk about this issue with people who are honest and don't readily call others racist at the drop of the hat than not talk about this
issue at all.
And thank you Duzey, for your comments. I find your honesty refreshing in a sea of heated comments about this issue. I owe you my gratitude and
reverence for just simply dealing with the issue and even answering my questions even though they might seem strange sometimes. You seem to
understand more than most that I have questions and comments that deserve the benefit of the doubt just like everyone else.
As I said before, you are truly my hero.
I still hope that you, donwhite, 2manyquestions, nextguyinline, HarlemHottie, Semper and others stay through this drama. I'm sorry you all have to
read this. But with all of your intellect and kindness we can truly converse about this issue and have the thread it was meant to be. Let us discuss
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