posted on Jun, 28 2006 @ 01:59 PM
WOW! You people are the greatest!! I cant believe how supportive you all are. It really means so much to me. My sister and Springer have been keeping
me up to date with all of your kind words and thoughts, it really made me smile, and also motivated me that much more to get the hell out of the
hospital. The hospital was actually pretty nice, and the nurses for the most part were very kind and very attentitive.
I have had 7 chemotherapy treatments thus far, and I need only about 5 more. And I have been handling them pretty well up until this past week. I get
tired or sick, I take a nap. That has been working well. But this past week I got really sick. I have a cast iron stomach, but I still felt nauseas.
Usually I only feel this way for around a day or so and then it starts to pass. This time it lasted longer, around 4 days. In fact Sunday was the
worst and I was also getting pains in my stomach.
I was concerned that I might have an intestinal blockage, or the start of one as I wasn't vomitting. So I call the doctor on call at Sloan, and he
says go to this emergency room right away. They keep me waiting, do some x-rays and a CAT scan. Then this doctor comes over to me, says I don't have
any blockages, but, my left kidney is swollen and something is blocking the flow of urine out of it. He then says he feels this is related to the
illness I suffered before.
So I ask him, "Do I have cancer in my kidney?" (nothing really shocks me anymore) and he says, "No, but we think you have a recurrence of the
cancer in your pelvis and it is blocking the flow of urine from that kidney.
So off he goes, and I am left to contemplate what is left. I realize that this could very well mean my ticket has been punched. I am terminally ill. I
was kind of numb, then started to feel sad about all the things I enjoy in life and not being able to do them anymore (What did the cylons implant
into Starbuck?) So it was a long night.
The next morning, my oncologist from Sloan comes in to see me, examines me and then asks "As opposed to have cancer, do you think maybe that the way
you are feeling and everything is more related to the cancer?" I quickly said yes. (Is Jack going to make it out of China in 24 hours?) To make a
very long and convoluted story short, the radiologist at Sloan said that they disagreed with the findings of the doctors at the hospital. In fact,
they were able to compare my last scan with this one and said there was no change.
I had a kidney infection, combined with the chemo and that is why I felt so miserable.
It was crazy. I felt so relieved when I found out that the doctors at this hospital had mis-diagnosed me, but also a little relieved that I did have
an infection. Because the infection was giving me fevers and making me even more ill. So I get rid of that and I should be able to tolerate the chemo
Again, thank you my ATS family for the outpouring of love and support from each and everyone of you. I could not wait to get home and read this thread
and I am not disappointed at all.