A Literal Bipolar Moderate
Originally posted by donwhite
Medications work but even in people who know better there is the irresistible urge to stop taking the medicine when the disorder is under control. I
have never asked the person why they do that but I’ve heard them explain to others they get to feeling euphoric and think that at last, they have
conquered the disease. Not so.
Tell me about it.
I like the "Libertarian = Bipolar Moderate" concept. It describes me pretty well.
I generally don't talk about my personal politics on ATS too much. I kind of got burned out on talking politics over the years.
But since I ranted about it in BQ&B today, I suppose I can come out of the closet a bit.
Actually, I just wanted to address the question of why us maniacs are so resistant to treatment when we're manic.
The answer is that there's no drug ever made that compares to how wonderful being manic feels.
Jagged Little Pill
I can take Depakote to mitigate mania if I want to, but I rarely want to, because mania feels so good. I think of it as "payback" for the depressive
phases, which are extremely difficult to deal with (especially when you can't take antidepressants, like me).
So I try to take the good with the bad.
And let's be honest: if you had a "disease" that made you feel on top of the world sometimes, and at the bottom of the abyss other times, would you
choose to take drugs that only knock out the highs?
Regarding "bipolar politics", the most pejorative labels are usually reserved for citizens who choose to think for themselves, rather than run with
the partisan herds and adjust their opinions to please their parties.
In such an environment, people can call me whatever they want -- and have: I've been accused of being both left-wing and right-wing on ATS, which is
actually rather gratifying.
I'll still think the way I want to and vote the way I want to.
To those who embrace partisanship as a religion, I say this:
I got your party riiiiiiight heeeeeeere.
P.S. Lest anyone get the wrong idea, I have my political views, which tend to generally lean right I suppose (I'm not big on Marxist government), but
my personal views don't change how I feel about other ATSers who have different views. We're all ATSers, all have our reasons for thinking the way
we do, and I respect that immensely.
And I try to always remember that no matter how sure I may be that I'm right about something, I could still be wrong. My life experiences have borne
[edit on 6/17/2006 by Majic]