posted on May, 18 2006 @ 11:42 AM
OK, so someone tell me WTH happened to me last night?
I know I have heard the term "sleep paralysis" before, and sometimes it is used to explain away people having experiences perceived by them as
demonic oppression or alien abduction, but really-what is it-sleep paralysis and what happened to me last night ....and was it just "sleep
...or something else?
I went to bed and drifted off to sleep and after some time sleeping suddenly my dreams became lucid. Not lucid as in I had control of it, but where I
was "awake" enough in it I was aware I was sleeping/dreaming... and what I was dreaming seemed perceivably that something harmful was happening to
me-in real life...and that I should wake!
...but I couldn't. I tried but I couldn't. I say tried and couldn't as in I could not become fully conscious and perceive the real world, nor open
my eyes, nor did I feel like I was fully awake with just my eyes closed etc, or something you know? I was trapped in this "dream" and it was all
dark and scarey, but I knew I was dreaming and I also knew something in the real world was supposedly happening to my body.
That went on for some time it seemed and I was in a panic and then suddenly I was fully conscious, but it wasn't like waking from a bad dream as
usual, you know where your body may jerk, or your eyes fly open or you sit up abruptly, heart pounding and relieved "it was all a dream" etc.
No, this was just that my eyes were open, as if they had been all along, and I was fully conscious, no longer dreaming, aware of my husband next to me
sleeping, aware of my house and family and grateful I had finally awoken, but scared still by the fact I could not move or speak and felt ill at ease
with everything unnatural going on. I lay there completely paralyzed and completely aware of it.
At first I could not even move my open eyes, they were fixed on the top of the open bedroom door where the light from the kitchen illuminated it, and
finally I could move my eyes about but could see not much else because I could not move my head or anything else.
I tried to say something to my husband but I could not speak or even move my mouth. Talk about panic! Fully awake, but completely paralyzed and unable
to even cry out for help.
Now, just so you know, I've had those dreams where you are having a dream, and then dream you wake up but are really still dreaming...or are trying
to scream in a dream but can't, etc. This was not the same. Nothing close. I was fully awake and conscious and completely paralyzed.
I stared at the top of the door and then suddenly I was dreaming again...back in the dream...still lucid enough aware it was a dream, still aware I
was paralyzed..now in the dream as well I was parlyzed, and still in a panic and knowing I needed to wake.
I knew my husband lay next to me in reality and in my dream that became the dream-me laying in bed trying to wake or get him to notice I was in
distress and help me...but it was all in vain until I could finally move my arm and you know when you try to scream in a dream, but can't-I could.
In my dream I was screaming, no longer paralyzed completely but still some, I was clawing at my husband and pulling his hair trying to wake him, and
suddenly I was fully awake again in real life-like snapping out of a trance again I was staring at the top of the door as if my eyes had never
closed-still I was paralyzed!
I lay thinking of my dream, wishing I could scream or wake my husband, and move! I put forth all my energy and finally moved an arm and was striken
with fear as if I was fighting against some unnatural force to do so.
Finally, I pulled his arm over me and clinged to it-and I could speak. I said I'd had a "bad dream" simply and sought comfort that did not
immediately come. I had a "weird feeling" that "something/someone" was in the room. Close to the floor...several something or someones that were
small, short, or stooped over or crawling on the floor.
I could not shake that feeling... and though I could not rationally believe it, I couldn't help irrationally fearing the "something" anyway. I had
to stay on my back, or put my back to my husband, because otherwise I felt vulnearble to the unseen.
I finally eventunally fell back to sleep...but man...WTH was that all about?!?!?!?!? I'll take the typical "bad dream" over that experience any
day. I was freaked.