Hey guys/gals-is there significance in a theme recurring in your dreams? This is a personal theme, nothing of a paranormal predictive nature, so kind
of boring I realize, but I'd love some feedback by those in the know re:dreams.
I am occassionally plagued by a particular dream where I am in school. Especially recently. I awake in a panic sometimes too because I have somehow
run out of time, forgotten not only to do assignments, but to go to certain classes... like all year, etc., and now the year is drawing to an end. I
Sometimes I can't even remember what the classes were...I'm confused and wondering what classes were on my schedule-what class had I forgot
entirely, or if I had time to find out, make up for it etc...
Now, I am in my 30's and haven't stepped into an institution for learning for many years. Odd thing is though, despite a few military tech schools,
and some college way back when...it is HIGH school I keep dreaming about like this.
...now here is the kind of odd thing about that too-or perhaps it is the more pertinent point? Well, whatever, here is some background on me:
I only went to highschool for about 2 years. Oh I was educated and graduated mind you, but I stopped actually going to school-is that what this is all
Why the hell my mother couldn't find a private montessori-like school I don't know...but I was just not able to cope in regular public schools any
I just didn't like it much, highschool and the whole daily grind of school and the idiots I attended with etc...and though I had actually lost my
interest in formal education much much earlier, it was my junior year (you know, grade 11) that I opted out of going to my public highschool and had a
public educator teach me privately in my home instead.
It was going to be that or nothing. I had moved accross town, lived with my best friend's family, attended the other "best" highschool in our
city...but I use the term "attended" very lightly. I hardly went to my classes, never did homework. I had copped a Brittish accent and just enjoyed
making fools of everyone who thought I was a foreign exchange student for a semester.
I know, silly, but it was fun.
I never regretted that little episode of my life, oh sure of hurting a few people's feelings for fooling them, but I never feared repercussions of
missing school back then-though they came, after one semester I was immediately sent back across town to my original school and reprimanded for my
"hijinx." I was bored not only with school but life. The alternative was to finish highschool at home and just get on with my life-so I did.
I liked the set up. I got a full time job, supported my music habit and lifestyle, and had "school" on Tuesdays and Thursdays-actually it was more
like I turned in my assignments on those days and sat around BSing with my instructor deciding if we were going to piss everyone off at graduation and
have me participate in the graduation ceremony or not. (this was opposed by many since I didn't traditionally attend the highschool anymore)
So anyway...knowing that background... what of these dreams now?
I've had them over the years, but alot lately.
Sometimes in my dream the year is drawing to a close and I have excelled in a few classes and then it dawns on me, there are some classes I've
forgotten to attend entirely, and suddenly I realize there are tests I have missed, and suddenly I am just pannicked...is it too late? Can I just go
in and take the final exam? or am I in trouble for not attending all year etc?
Hmmm I guess some of this is kind of obvious to me suddenly as I write it out for everyone...but why NOW? Why do I have these dreams so much NOW? and
what exactly do they mean? What is the panic and anxiety all about? Why do I not even know what classses I've forgotten. I had dreams like this 2-3
times in one week recently.
Am I feeling unprepared in general? Why school? Why highschool? Weird.