posted on Oct, 22 2003 @ 08:33 PM
I'm not asking for help with anything.
For years I've known what lurked within the corners of my mind... it is the removing of mental barriers placed by others (let's say they aren't...
physical) that causes me ill. I've tried everything from hypnotism to inviting people in to unlock a couple walls... all to naught.
*this is, by the way, the hidden motive I've talked about*
This challenge is just... a test. To see if those speaking the truths of the Necronomican will come forward... (this is not limited to just the
Necronomican). It doesn't even have to be an attack... Dany has offered services to try something. This challenge is also part of a learning
experience, so that both the attacker and attackee can grow and learn (practice practice practice!).
If anyone wishes to try to see/remove the inner walls locking my other in (sounds crazy, but I've posted this one too many times on a couple threads
to re-explain it here), then please, I invite you (of your own free will).
But if anyone wants to test their caliber or abilities, then I openly accept the challenge. There is one minor draw-back, though... I explained it to
Dany, but maybe I can make better sense of it here:
I am not in conscious control of the things that I do. My abilities are second nature... I just do them as someone would blink or swallow. Because
of this, I started to study and research, to see why and how I am able to do these things... the more I looked into the matter, the more my powers...
"evolved" (see earlier posts on this thread). The more I grew, however, the more I noticed/realized that more was being held back... with the help
of others, we discovered that "others" placed barriers within my mind to keep me from this knowledge, with the psychic warnings of "the time is not
yet right". *Well, after roughly 15 years, I am tired of only catching glimpses and hints... if there is something there, I want to know what it
is.* These "others" who placed the walls also, have, from time-to-time, prevented people from aiding me in self-realization, by one means or
another.
So, now my reasoning is, if the gentle approach of freeing myself doesn't work, then a full-blown onslaught should do the trick.
(And as for what Dany is doing... there is no attack involved... just some trick playing, testing of the skills).
Does this help clarify anything? If not, let me know. (If anyone wants more information about my inner self, read the thread "What am I?"... the
current one talking about mirrors and seeing a different self also has some information).