Let me start off by saying that I’m very happy about coming back to ATS, when I first stumbled upon this haven of knowledge and enlightenment, I was
young, very young and naïve, which resulted in me having to leave ATS… until now. As my first writing piece after my “comeback”, I’d like to
tell you my lives story, inspired to do so by a little post I encountered recently about “Chills” that can be found here. I'm also subject to
this chill, and believe me when I say it's tormented as much as captivated and "pleased" me. I have examined every single explanation that I
encountered, every little shred of hope, from an Otherkin Soul to a Neurological Disorder, I’ve seen it all. So, believe me when I say this thread
is of great importance to me. Now, if you allow me, I’ll start my story from the beginning, like all stories start, and this story happens to be
. Be warned that it might sound fantastic at times, but believe me when I say it's 100% true, Ignorants you have been Warned! Although I
doubt there'll be much Ignorants and a Website using the "Deny Ignorance" label, but you sometimes get those leet 12 year olds that think they have
an "uberz" demonic power and they're the Prince of Darkness yatayatayata... Anyway, let's get to the story shall we?
It all started when I was around 11 years old... I had just changed countries, having moved from NY (Believe it or not it was the worst place I’ve
been in my whole life, and I was living in Westchester which isn’t even in The Big Apple, it's in the suburbs) to Brussels, Belgium, a nice quite
but boring as hell city. I always thought of Brussels as the cradle of my soul and mind, since I discovered ATS and much of what I know now if not
everything I now there. Well, I think this journey started with me (Don’t ask how, I prefer to skip the more embarrassing and personal details)
getting into Pagan Magic and Were creature pages. I don’t remember exactly when these chills began, but I think they started soon after I got into
those pages, and no, I doubt it was an adrenaline discharge produced by the thought of getting caught by my parents
. Well, anyway, I tried some of
the so called spells on the pagan pages, especially the energy/aura/chakra spells, and of course I didn’t get any results, nothing surprising 'bout
that. But here's the thing, I became obsessed with... well... the whole shape shifting thingy. And I mean OBSESSED. The thing is... I think that
changed my life forever. Let me say right now that my knowledge of Spiritual Guides, Pagan Magic, and the Paranormal is quite superficial, although I
have some vague concepts which I imagine to be higher than that of a "Normal Person’s", but let’s continue with the story, shall we?
Oh, and as a side note, pardon my strange story telling manner, I just think it makes reading this account more bearable and even fun. Anyway...
let’s get back to the story for real this time aye? Well, let me just say that I tried to "shape shift", and I think it would have worked... if it
were not for a series of factors unbeknownst to me at the time. Let's just say I almost shape shifted in my friends basement surrounded by 4 colleges
and behind a pillar, strange enough for you? Well, the thing is, when I tried to shape shift, I felt a variation of this "Chill", a very powerful
variation. I believe that if I hadn’t stopped myself, something WOULD have happened. The thing is that I think I somehow managed to damage or alter
my Karma, Chi Energy, Aura, Personal Energy or (Insert weird Oriental Name Here). After all this years I don’t think I’ve fully recovered, but
lately I’ve been regaining, or should I say, rediscovering this "lost powers".
(Ups, run out of posting Space, gona have to continue on another post
. Oh, and dont mind the "Apprentice Energy Channeler" title, it's a
reminder from my "naive" ATS period, gota get that changed as soon as I get enough points
[edit on 28-4-2006 by Azure Twilight]