This is taken from my daily blog... where I write crap like this more often..
Please forgive the allegory... But I wanted to take semantics to a whole other level with this perhaps for better insight into the phenomenon that we
call soul or spirituality..
The Leafs Journey began on one chaotically windy day when one tumbled seed decided to find a safe place to drop its defenses and open up to the
world.... This Leaf was hidden away inside the hard, yet fragile shell, which was tough enough to last from bounce to bounce until it landed in some
soft and supportive soil..... But because of the chaotic wind it was buried by the turmoil in the world in a round-about way beneath the soil.... When
it was buried in the soft and supportive soil, it noticed a certain comfort being away from the chaos for just a little while... The shell loves the
soft and supportive soil because it endured all the bumps and bruises from the chaotic winds, although the Leaf inside the shell knows how much abuse
it's shell has been under it still wonders what all that chaotic wind is all about, and why all the turmoil in the first place? Where did the wind
come from the seed asks itself. Bored, the Leaf inside wishes it was observing the chaotic winds, because the soft and supportive soil is predictable,
usual and consistant which goes against the seed as a whole because being a Leaf you want to feel the wind embrace you, and the shell wants to remain
comfortable because of its painful memory of its journey.
So the seed must make amends within itself.
It has to say to itself, the duality that is ME, is going to drive me insane.
So I, the Leaf must leave my shell and venture towards the Light, Where the Winds of Chaos Blow....
and as this decision becomes more viable, nature respondes to her children, and she cries for her curious child (the Leaf) and empathizes with the
shell, so nature sends her tears and the rain penetrates the hard crust of comfort that protects the soft and supportive soil underneath...
And these tears find their way to its kin, and the tears of mother nature bathe the shell, to show that the pain the shell went thru is trivial
compared to the pain mother nature has to endure as her children writhe to and fro curious about the very nature of their own mother, without ever
asking her opinion, always just judging and calling her work/creations names.
As these tears bathe the shell, it softens its rigid position and breaks just slightly.... Just enough so the little Leaf inside can peak it's head
thru and begin the journey on its own without the shell into the chaotic wind that the leaf hopes embraces it being and isn't as harsh as it was with
But now.... the Leaf has a very great advantage over the shell... The shell never knew that mother nature cared as much as she did for her young, and
the little Leaf never knew until the mother showed the little Leaf that the greatest guide to finding your way thru to the chaotic winds is to follow
the sun into the storm.
I suppose what I'm saying here is..
We have this outter shell we deem to be ourselves most of the time... because it's scared and it's been damaged a lot along its travels.
When we leave that person (the outter shell) behind, we find ourselves in totally unfamiliar area, with new emotions, new feelings, and thoughts.
But without any help or support, they run chaotically according to the "winds of chaos"
and we find ourselves "fence sitting"... (in my terminology) I mean, one moment sitting on the fence and looking left is comfortable, and than when
it becomes dull, or doesn't feel like it used to we move and begin to sit on the fence looking right instead.
This is called upon by the shell... it thoroughly enjoys being MORE comfortable than it already is, and it's great feelings and intentions wane and
soon it wants a "better" position.
*I apologize for the allegory but I'm sure you can pick thru it and understand, if not leave a message.*
So the Leaf, (or real person/ the "true you") has to seperate itself from the shell in order to survive and be sane..
Well okay... The idea of the seperation is now there... but it seems a bit difficult to progress...
Well thats where the tears/rain and the sun come into play... and the desire to be embraced, free, yet among chaos ........
If anyone wants me to elaborate on the symbolism of the tears/rain and sun, leave a comment or I have no idea anyone even reads this shiit.
[edit on 1/12/2007 by PuRe EnErGy]