im freaking out. i had a dream last night that i was abducted, but i could feel what they were doing to me.
this is too much.
that night, yesterday, day of that dream, before i slept, i covered my windows with thick sheets, put a towel covering the bottom of my door in my
room, & put my socks over my sweat pants, & wore a hooded sweater with the hood on tight...cause im scared.
i am terrified.
i cant sleep. right now, im drinking coffee. i dont wanna sleep because...what if it happens again?! i wasnt abducted. i dont believe it. its way too
hard to believe, or even think about!!!
i dont think i was abducted. no...
but that dream i had was unbelievably real...i felt everything. it was a nightmare.
& now i have even stronger feelings that when im alone specifically at night that im being watched, & i dont like that feeling.
i feel it right now, & its daylight.
im panicking. i dont feel safe...IN MY OWN HOUSE!!!
well, to tell you the truth, ive never been.
my sisters seen spirits in this house...
& my ex boyfriend saw something, someone standing in my room. i didnt see it. he did. he said it was all black, like a shadow but darker. big head,
the hight of maybe a 9 or 10 year old by the way he described it, then he turned on the light, then turned it off again, & it was gone.
i didnt see it, but the face he had when he was looking at the wall is something ill never forget. he didnt blink at all.
wtf am i supposed to do? huh?
i cant sleep, & i wont sleep, because now im gonna feel like theyre gonna take me away (again, if i ever even was to begin with).
i feel like im making you feel bad. & if i am, its not your fault. you just told me where to look, i was the one to look, so its on me. i got myself
in this mess. but thank you for not thinking i was lying or crazy or anything like that. its hard to find ppl here who actually believe & dont
ridicule on ppl who believe. thanks. youre pretty kool. i hope you know that.
[edit on 29-4-2006 by sanctum]