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My life was without purpose. Every moment I was alive was evidence to me that there was no real meaning in life. Every friend that I thought cared about me betrayed me, family members judged me, teachers ignored me. This was my daily life in junior high school. Every night I came home disgusted by the reality that I was faking my way through life, on the surface I was happy and loved every moment of life, on the inside I was alone and scared. If you have ever felt this dichotomy inside of you then you know that it is a cause of depression. I could not stand living two lives, not knowing which was real. Compound upon that all the guys calling me a homosexual, when I didn’t even know truly what that meant. A group of guys that I had become friends with turned their backs on me and began taunting and mocking me, the started a group called the HHK (Homosexual Haters Klan) in order to hurt me. From that day in junior high until my freshman year of college not a single day went by when I did not contemplate committing suicide. I never would, simply because I couldn’t hurt my family.
Something very unexpected happened my freshman year of college. I met a group of people who really cared about me. They wanted to spend time with me and to actually see how I was doing. I was amazed. As I began to hang out with them they brought me with them to a Christian event. After about a month of hearing the same things over and over again I began to listen. I had called myself a Christian for nearly 5 years at that point, but I was missing gone critical piece. I had never made a decision to follow Christ. I new all the stuff about Jesus dying for me, and me being saved, and having eternal life, but I never understood how to get it. One night in November of my freshman year a pastor told the crowd that if we wanted to claim those promises we needed to make a decision, an actual every day decision to give control of my life over to Jesus and let Him be my God.
It wasn’t until three months later that I truly felt the impact of the decision I made. I was home over break in January and I realized that since that night I had not even contemplated committing suicide. I was awestruck. It was then that I truly began to understand the impact of my decision. Jesus is not a miracle drug. He is not going to come in and clean up your life and fix every issue you have. No what he is going to do is come into your life and give you hope and purpose. In the bible Jesus says “I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” (John 10:10) God wants you to have a life that is truly abundant, overflowing with love, happiness, and joy. He came into my life, He gave me hope that even though I didn’t have all the answers He was enough to suffice. Even though I didn’t have the strength to face another day, He did. You may have never heard this before you maybe you have heard it a thousand times, but God loves you. Yes there is a God and He loves YOU!
Originally posted by sardion2000
2. Insufficient Sunlight (You need at least 30 minutes of DIRECT sunlight per day for Vit D, or get a sunlight lamp, they are expensive, but they have directly lead to a decline in suicides in some of the Nordic countries(they have the highest suicide rates in the world, forget who's the first though))