The *Darker* side of Meditation, page 2

Originally posted by arc
hmmmmm I think if you 'open' yourself, you have to be prepared to deal with both 'dark' and 'light' influences.

I had a somewhat odd experience a week ago. Recently I've been suffering with extreme anxiety, loss of perspective and a kind of 'head in a box' sensation. Finally last week I experienced a change in mood and things are steadily getting better and brighter again.

The day the mood finally broke was when I also experienced some odd sensations. I had played some music for the first time in ages (nothing mystical, just some regular songs that take me to a very deep place inside) and was crashed out on the couch drifting. I started to experience intense joy, physically felt it in the location of the solar plexus chakra. It almost felt like an estatic pain. Soon after I started to cry and felt very unblocked and relieved afterwards.

A few hours later I went to bed, and although I knew nothing was in the room with me, I got the prickles in the back of my neck like you do when you've spooked yourself out telling ghost stories. I ended up so frightened I ran downstairs and turned all the lights on. It took me nearly 2 hours to balance myself and convince myself the light bulbs wouldn't blow while I was sat there. 30 years old and suddenly scared of the dark lol.

This certainly sounds like your awareness of the energy body. (mind level would correspond to the subconscious) The energy body is something of a quantum wave. The levels of the wave ebb and flow from undefinable sadness to undefinable joy. That's our subjective takes anyway. The objective view would be a lower vibration or trough and the higher vibration or crest.

When you're able to feel this you are more aware of your energy body. This begins your conscious journey of ascension.

As we know, when we are aware of something we can then begin to give more awareness until we're able to manipulate it. For instance, when you are aware and actually believe that you can control your heart rate then you start giving awareness. After a certain undisclosed point bam you can control your heart rate.

Since the mind level that corresponds to the energy body is the subconscious there in lies the key to beginning conscious manipulation of the energy body.

Such things as knowing things before they happen or the first answer being correct are signs that the conscious is tapping the sub. The sub automatically taps the unconscious since there is not conscious blockage (aka you) to interfere with the transfer. So basically you are tapping both the energy and the soul. The energy allows for a closer transduction so the conscious mind will be able to understand easier than a straight shot to the soul. Kinda like the way transformers will step down the power as it gets closer to your light socket. It wouldn't exactly be safe to plug in a lamp with 100,000 volts running through the line.

At least that is how I currently see it.

Edit: For those that may not be on the jouney yet, one of the first keys is trusting yourself to the point you will take the first answer you give yourself instead of second guessing it. This will begin to clean up the pipe or open the channel so-to-speak. The more you do it consciously the more open you become to the things behind it (like seeing things before they happen).

[Edited on 11-5-2003 by uIVIa]