Now where did I leave off with Sherry B? (I am not using their last initials but just calling them Sherry A (the first) and Sherry B (the second) to
protect their families privacy if someone they know happens to read this).
Angel you asked earlier if it was an OBE and to describe the steps of my visit from Sherry B. It was like I was in a different state of consciousness
even within a dream. I have heard some people say a dream is just a dream because a person is asleep, but there are different levels of consiousness
during the sleeping process, just as there are when a person is awake. I think visitors from beyond/spirits/astral travelor's look for the right
opportunity, for the Alpha state of a persons mind just before they go into deep sleep and jump in there. It is possible to get to Alpha while awake
(we do it all the time when we daydream, meditate, etc. but we do it every night in a dependable way, and if I were a ghost I would wait for a person
there. Just as a person can recognize when they are leaving their body when in a planned Alpha state during the day, people can also feel when they
are in an OBE when in a natural Alpha sleeping state at night.
After Sherry B. told me about Charlie having her baby and the adoption papers, and after she made me promise to adopt her baby, I then asked her if I
could see where she was existing now, and have a look at Heaven. "While I have you here, it doesn't hurt to ask!" I joked. She agreed, and I took
her hand and I then traveled further out of my body, and felt my soul leaving it (O.B.E.), and we Astral Traveled into the stars. (The office
building, and how she appeared to me at first, was more for appearances; a setting she manifested to make me feel comfortable). This Before Heaven
place of hers was like a glowing blue planet I could see from a distance, and as I said earlier I didn't realize until we flew closer to the surface,
that the blue light was coming from all the souls, (which looked a little like flames) living upon the planets surface. As we got closer I could hear
a great humming noise, and when we got even closer I realized it was all of them communicating with one another. Also, I could make out some details
of their faces inside of the spirit flames, eyes, nose, mouth, etc. The flames for the most part did seem to stay stationary, and not move around
much, just waver. Although, I do think I saw little whirly winds of white light moving among them from time to time. I could feel an overwhelming
sense of peace and love being there, and I remarked to Sherry how nice I thought it was there. She said "Yes it is wonderful and I feel happy here
and I am learning a lot and I shouldn't complain really, but I do miss my body and I am a little bored here right now. I miss going out for Mexican
food and Margaritas with you on our lunch hour, and getting silly, and I miss our areobic dance classes at the church together." (I wasn't a member
of her church but I went there once a week with her to exercise at the dance class they had there). Then she said she couldn't wait until she was
ready finally and could go to the next place. (I knew beyond any doubt it was really her then because she loved doing things, and was honest, and
only she would say the 'Before' place was boring..lol)
I asked Sherry if it was just her and the other souls there, or were there other beings also there? And, she said "We have Teachers here too, and
God is always here watching over us with His Love." I don't know if the teachers were Angels or Guides or other advanced human souls that were
Teachers. She said she was mostly concerned about her baby right now, and so it was hard to concentrate on what she was supposed to learn at the
Before Place, that's why it was decided she could come back and visit people to try and resolve her worries. *Notice I said 'people'. I will get
to that in a minute.
The OBE/astral travel experience was fairly short. Sherry then returned me to the office building and she said just close your eyes and wait here for
a minute and you will be returned to your body now. She told me she loved me and I said the same back to her, and we hugged and then she was gone.
Without her energy to sustain the facade, the office faded and I was back in my Alpha state again, but I woke up instead of going further into sleep
because I couldnt sleep after that. I felt very energized and I still felt the good feelings I experienced at the Before place. I kept remembering
what Sherry wanted me to do, but I kept fighting it, and putting it off and maybe trying to dismiss what had happened a little, even though I knew it
was real. I was afraid to go forward and to see Charlie and find out if it was really true or not.
I thought about it everyday for several days but did nothing. Then at work one day I was taking a little nap in the break room. I felt someone
staring at me, and I opened my eyes and my co-worker Annabelle was looking right at me. She said right out of the blue "You know I had the strangest
dream last nite...it was about Sherry."
That woke me up! I said "Really what happened?" Annabelle said "In my dream Sherry came to see me here at work, and she said she had a baby and
she wanted me to tell you not to forget and to adopt her baby like you promised." Then Annabelle said "Isn't that wild! I knew the dream
couldn't be true because Sherry never had a baby before she died." Then she looked at me and I must have looked in shock and couldn't hide what I
was feeling, so then Annabelle asked me "Or did she? Did Sherry have a baby? Is that true?" And I couldnt lie, so I told her she did, but asked
her to please not tell anyone about it. And then Annabelle wanted to know if it was this guy Jon C. at work, was he the father? (who she only went
out with on a casual date one time...Puh leeze!) And I told her "No it was noone from work". I was afraid she was going to blab to the whole office
about it, and she did, but luckily it never got back to Sherry's family.
I have to admit if the choice had been up to me to choose to save the baby's life or Sherry's, I would have been selfish and saved Sherry. Because
she was such a wonderful person, and one of the best friends I ever had in this life. But it was her choice, not mine, and for her to have
chemotherapy, it would mean that the Dr. would have to abort her baby first because the chemo would kill him anyway, and she did not that. She might
have died from cancer anyway even with the chemotherapy, and at least by deciding to choose the baby's life over chemo, she made sure one life would
have a chance to live. As time went on, and I saw how she suffered to bring him into this world, I began to regard her as a true hero. She didn't
even have any pain medications to help her with her excrutiating pain from cancer because it might cause her unborn baby harm.
She was one of the most noble people who suffered in silence that I have ever known. Just before she died I went to see Sherry one last time. Her
eyes were sunk deep into her head and yet there was a bright sparkle in them. Underneath her eyes it was dark and her skin was a different color, and
she didn't look human anymore and I hardly recognized her she was so shrunken and spent. What happened to my beautiful friend who was so full of
life? She looked up at me with her bright fervent eyes, and the she smiled in the most glowing way, and told me to come to her. She put her hand on
my hand, and told me how much she loved me. Her words seem to come almost from a vacuum or from between two worlds, it was like she was already half
way out the door. She said 'I know I won't see you again, after this. I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. You were a very good friend
to me. And, I want to say Goodbye to you. But only for now because I will see you again". And I couldn't find a word to say to her because my
throat had shut down. But then I found my voice and said, "Goodbye Sherry, I Love You! I will see you again." Her eyes were locked onto mine the
whole time and she never took them off mine not even as I left the room. And later that night, she died.
I went home and cried so hard that I think I made it rain outside.
After the dream, I went to see Charile as I have already said, and saw her cute heathy baby with the red hair. And I could see her in him, so I could
see she was still living through him. Charlie showed me the adoption papers, they were made out to him, but he could readopt the baby to whomever he
choose, and he knew I would be coming by and he said "It's ok you take your time and think about it". I didn't feel a sense of urgency, even
though he was a gentlemen in his 90's he had the baby situation pretty well under control and seemed to be enjoying having the child there, and was
cheerfully whisking around doing things for him like a Father Hen.
Still I was torn about adopting Sherry's baby. (I decided to tell you about Bob because its not that big of a deal)..What I can say about Bob is
from what I knew about him, is that he was not a bad person, (part of his job as Deacon was to have fun classes with kids), he was very good at
playing with children, they loved being around him, he came down to their level, but that is because he was like a child himself, I could see that
when I got to know him better as an adult later. That is what bothered Sherry about him, she thought he was very immature. She did not mean to have
a baby with him either, she had decided after getting to know him better just to be friends with him, and they were not married, but they was drinking
and got carried away, and it happened just once, but that once is all it takes. She felt some regret by getting pregnant without being married, but I
think it was meant to happen, that God was giving her the joy of having a child one more time since all of her other children had been taken from her.
Bob's children loved Sherry, and Bob's daughter Teri was hoping that her dad and Sherry would get married someday, so she could have Sherry as her
mother, and grandmother to her small children. (Bob and Sherry A. had been divorced for some time) Teri was there at Sherry's bedside almost
everyday especially at the end, and you could see how much she loved her, and how much Sherry loved Teri, but she did not know Sherry's true feelings
for her dad. Bob had even asked her to marry him and Sherry had said 'No'.
So that is why I was torn, sure Bob was immature but is that any reason to keep a baby from his dad? There must have been another reason Sherry
didn't tell me about (why she didn't want Bob to have their baby), but since she didnt tell me I didn't feel right going ahead with adopting her
baby. When I don't know what to do sometimes I do nothing and procrastinate. For two weeks I procrastinated, until...
One day my husband and I were traveling along the highway and we decided to get a bite to eat. We drove randomly around and found a Steak House off
the beaten path that we had never been to before. We sat down, and low and behold the waitress that came to take our order was Bob's daughter Teri!!
Ok this was amazing because 1. I didn't even know Teri was a waitress, 2. She lived in another city that was a fair commute away. and 3. The odds
of us walking into a random restaurant we had never been to before and having her as our waitress, Wow!
A wave came over me and then I knew what I was supposed to do about Sherry's baby. Teri came over to take our orders, saw it was us and was happy to
see us and wanted to talk about how sad she was about Sherry, and told us about how much she loved Sherry and thought of her as her mom. After that,
I found myself talking to her, almost as if someone else was doing it, and not thinking about the words I was saying. I said "Teri I have to talk to
you about something very important. Do you remember when Sherry was in the hospital how big her stomach got?"
Teri looked puzzled and frowned slightly and said "Yessss...I do but that is because the cancer spread to her stomach isn't it?"
I said "No, it wasn't Cancer, Sherry was pregnant and she had a baby!"
"What a baby!!! Sherry was pregnant? Who was the father...??" Then she paused and a look of realization came over her face "....OMG was my dad
the father??" Teri asked.
I said 'Yes', and Teri said "I have a baby brother from my mother Sherry" and then she fainted. I sure didn't mean to shock her so bad she
fainted! I should have thought that part out first. But my husband caught her midway, and set her down in the booth next to us. I put some cold
water on her face and fanned her and she came to.
Then I explained the whole thing to her, how Sherry felt about her dad and what happened, and how she came to me and Annabelle in dreams. I asked her
if she knew why Sherry would not want her dad to have the baby, and I asked her if she thought he was immature, or would be irresponsible in anyway.
She said she wasn't sure...maybe. I asked Teri if she could adopt her little brother and raise him as her child along with her other children. I
said if you can't do that could you watch over him and make sure no harm comes to him when he is in your dad's care? She said she would make sure
no harm ever came to him and she would love him, so I told her where he was. This seemed the best solution to me because now the child would have his
true blood family, especially his sister, and his heritage. Being an adopted child and a foster child so many times I know there is nothing like
having your real blood family (even if it's not perfect) and I couldn't deprive him of that. Don't get me wrong, I would have loved to adopt
Sherry's baby. He was an little angel. But, I just felt that would have been selfish on my part.
I have always felt bad for breaking my promise to Sherry. Maybe she feels betrayed. I hope she has forgiven me by now. I have been meaning to see
what happened to Sherry's baby because I don't know what happened after I told Teri. I knew Teri and I knew she would take good care of him, and I
felt my part in this had ended after I told her. I thought I should just 'butt out' and let his family handle it. This happened many years ago,
but maybe I should check in on him now and see how his life has been. He would be a teenager, almost an adult now. And, if he needs anything I could
help him with...then I could do that.
Anyway Angel, ty for encouraging me to tell the stories of my Angels, the 2 Sherry's, and the Angel and God and Heaven. You provided a perfect
atmosphere for me to tell it and I am glad I did because I have kept it inside for a long time now! I am very glad to be led to this testimony, and
to you. I feel better now that I have shared the miracles I have seen. I have always felt privileged for being part of the lifes of the many
wonderful people I have met along the way and I am grateful that you were touched by their stories, that means a lot to me. I am glad this happened
so people can see what a tapestry was woven by God in my life and many others, and over a long time span. I hope this will give other people hope
that they are not alone, that there is a plan, and that we are watched over by God and Angels and our loved ones, and they help with decisions that
are hard to make and help guide us too.
Keep up the Good Work Angel! I think you are Awesome in every way!!!
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