posted on Jan, 12 2006 @ 07:44 PM
This article was written by me and a good friend of mine. The first part is his while the second part is mine.
Part one - done by Jason
this IS gona offend a lot of people.
in writting this i am gona be blunt, i do not mind and you should not either if you're not egotistical, first i should ask does this sound
"I am actually a fallen angel who has the blood of elves and dragons runing within my viens and am all powerful in the astral relms and have never
i gurentee that almost 90% of you will reconise it to a lesser degree or in some cases an even higher degree. and in most cases in yourself
this is pathetic, you attempt to make yourself appeare better, stronger, this is one ego trip for all involved, and yes i was there too i myself was a
"necromatic lord in the asterl realms" three years i was cauught in this trap of what is known as the "magical community" there is a precious
little in this community who can truly be called mages and even that does not give them a whole array of powers it is mearly saying that this person
uses energy, there are so little people who can call them selves pratitioners, how many of you despite having been part of the comunnity and known
about magik, stil DAILY even if its just for half an hour, practise even something simple like moving enegy around the body or making a psiball.
"eliminate all ego" do you have any idea just how relevant that is, how many buddas and enlightened ones have been decendants of a "unicorn race
from the dimension of the gods"... NONE!!!!!!!!!
are you afraid of being human???
have any of you ever taken the time to find out just how powerful a human is???
by creating this roleplay you futher yourself from your self. how can you possibly hope to gain strengh when you know nothing about yourself and
refuse to accept yourself as you are,i am not emphatic i have a very hard time feeling emotions of people other than ones close to me, why then should
i have to lie about it because the "magik community" wil look down on me, the most discusting part is that many leaders in whom many new people just
intruduced to magik look up to and awe, these leaders too seperate themselfs by trying to be more impressive. what is wrong??
this is what its come to, who knows how many aeons of powerful energys has been reduced to an ego contest, im not saying you are nothing, nor am i
saying that you are only capable of very little. i am asking why do you limit yoursel? why do you willingly restrict yourself with self created
i know many of you wont take this seriously or will find some way to defend yourself. carry on, it is your life, im am not forcing you to do anything.
prehaps you wonder why there are no more works of powerful energys been done anymore, and why no more great magiks are being preformed, its not
because of some external source weakening the energys of the world, it is because no one believes that they are capable any more. if people spent the
same amount of time boosting thier egos as they did practising the energys of most people would be amazing in reality.
accept yourself, know yourself, look within instead of without, eliminate all ego, and above all do not limit yourself!!!!!!!!
Part 2 - done by me
Okay I agree with Nibbs. I too have been lost in the same for too long now. I found this site with the help of others, I had my studies of magicks and
psionics behind my belt but I came across a place where one can be a dragon, or an elf and a million other mystical beings. Perhaps those are the only
things that stayed true throughout my stay. I knew my magicks for what I could do with them and I had some skill with elementalism but only related
with wind and I took that as my psionics skill.
But now as I was saying, before I found this forum. Such concepts as the ones I found here were unfamiliar, and all too soon I was “remembering”
things. Things that did not happen and created beliefs and such to suit the site, to become greater than I was. Which although I knew untrue made me
feel greater in some aspects.
I embraced these new concepts for a while until I made them my own, and altered them as such. The veil, a concept I didn’t believe let alone heard
of became as real as anything to me. It was interesting as hell to me, and then I got stuck within a small group of role-players and discovered
whatever I put in ** was as real as day to them. I probably made myself more than I was because at the time on a site of +- 60 members, very few there
were human and as such I didn’t want to be the outcast or held in lower respect than anyone else there and for that crazy reason I thought I’d get
more respect like that.
But to be honest, on the forums I visit most frequently, it was not because I was some sort of being other than human that I got respect but rather
because of my study and who I am that I got such, but I have to say. Most of those I spoke to on the Instant chats and such were role-players and as
far as I was concerned the only way I could get respect from such a group was to become one. It was wrong yes, but at the time I was trying to fit in
and well on my way to self delusion.
At the time it seemed that humans were the lesser race, which I now know not to be true. I now see humans for what they truly are, limitless beings.
One can look at many texts (to realize such, but when you look into fantasy novels one always sees that the other races look down upon humans, yet if
we look at those exact novels, well the majority of them anyway, which race is the one dominant on that world? I’d say in about 96% of those novels,
humans are the dominant race or end up in triumph in the end.
So this is me being dead honest. Concepts I had never heard of became real to me because I saw others believed in it. Things which made me feel good,
greater than I was. There were things I lied about and there were things I didn’t. I now know according to my beliefs that I am human and that as I
may have limits the veils referred to here is not as external as people think but rather internal and it is the limits you impose upon yourself and
those conditioned to you in many years. I am far from free of limits currently.
To me the soul is who you are, what you are. In my opinion it has no race, no gender but it does carry knowledge from one life to the next. There may
be other races and I truly believe there may be, it’s scientifically not plausible for this world to be the only one with life and one may remember
one’s past lives, but really, the operative word is past, the past does not determine your future, who you were then and who you are now are
different people, or beings if you will, but that is it. It is over. You are now who and what you are, but in my opinion by judging yourself or others
on your or their past and assigning your soul a race you limit yourself within what you believe such a race is capable of.
I am human, and I will continue to teach what I know about magick and psionics to those who are still willing to learn from me. I realize, like I told
founder before I posted this that I may lose the respect of those that I know on this board and those that came to trust me, but to be honest I still
am who I was a week or two ago. I just realized that some things I spoke of I never had a true belief in and that by keeping this illusion up I was
stunting my own spiritual growth.
I now ask and mean no offence about this but how many of you before coming across such information on the net (or any other source for that matter)
about indigo children, other kin etc. actually knew and believed what you claim to now? You do not have to answer the question to me or anybody else
but rather to yourself, the one and only person you can’t lie to and like Nibbs said, what is wrong with being human? I’d say nothing, what about
But like I said a while ago, I mean no offence to anyone with this and I shall leave off here. I am human and a magick user. I am no different than I
was other than perhaps knowing more than did. I am not above or below you. I am what I am and I hope that after this I shall still have your respect
and should I not I hope that in time I will be able to earn it back.
To those of you that came to know me, if you are to judge, judge instead on my actions while on this wrong path I took than by the fact that I walked
the wrong path, but regardless of that, I am glad that I now walk true to my own path and beliefs than another’s. The one good lesson that came from
all of this. One I learnt harder than those I hope that read this will and with such I shall leave off.