posted on Dec, 23 2005 @ 09:26 AM
William, you are in my thoughts. From reading your journal, it sounds like you have the right attitude.
It's impossible for other people to know the feeling of lonliness and aloneness one feels when they discover that their body has betrayed them with
this wretched disease. At least these were my feelings 2.5 years ago when I discovered that the lump in my breast was a fast-spreading cancer. It's a
feeling that I couldn't really share with anyone who hadn't experienced the same thing. Fortunately my friends and family were very supportive and
I'm on the other side of the whole miserable thing now.
After a radical mastectomy and lymph node removal, I can attest to the fact that there is 'the other side'. After all the wondering, fear of
completely handing my body over to another person's care, the painful recovery, there came a time when I knew I was on my way up instead of down;
that I actually wanted to get up in the morning and face the day. That time is there waiting for you.
You will arrive on this side, William, and leave the whole contemptible thing behind. You must know that and believe it. My brother went through a
very similar operation to what you describe. He also is on this side of it.
Skeptic Overlord reassures us that you are in the best of care. That's important. For a control freak like me, that's the hardest part. Trusting
someone so completely with the care of my person. But, amazingly, some of those people really do know what they're doing.
If you want, you know how to reach me. I await your arrival on this side.