posted on Feb, 2 2006 @ 03:19 PM
After smoking for 31 years, (I started when I was 12) I have been smoke free since sept. 6, 05. It was the most difficult things I have ever done.
If I can do it, you can too.
I had to quit, my fire department arrived on scene for a structure fire, I always pump to much adrenileine during a structure fire becuase I am search
and rescue, and if there is someone inside I may get trapped. So when I am headed to a fire scene I start preparing mentally as what I am going to
This scene happened to be a barn fire with no one inside, so I had to go on an attack line. I was running from the pumper to the fire with a 1.5 inch
uncharged hose line over my shoulder.
My oxygen for the first time was depleted, ( a combination of excitment and overexurtion)and I couldnt get a breath. I thought I as going to pass out,
but was affraid the chief would see how out of shape I was getting and held on.
I had to quit. It was more than my life I was gambling with, it was my brotherood I was risking and the lives of the public that depends on my ability
to drag them out of there home when it burns.
The point I am trying to make is, you need to find really good reason in your life to quit. Grab hold and dont let go, when the urge hits think of
your reason and fight that urge, it will subside. Remember it is not a constant need after the first week or so, get to that point and its a matter of
one urge at a time.