posted on Nov, 28 2005 @ 08:56 AM
I think user names are too short, if I could fit my whole name it would be
instead I shortened and rephrase it to be an exhortation for others, instead of reflective of me, however in reality I do think too much...
hmmmmm not sure who all reads this board but hope someone will be gracious enough to understand where I am coming from and thus be tolerant when you
come accross my posts on a thread
I think I may need to pop over to the adopt a newbie thread too...however I risk being euthanized before ever being adopted I'm sure...
you may be tempted to make fun of me for being simple minded or for my inability to articulate things as well as others, though my IQ would indicate
better potential for thought and expression, that is one aptitude I am afraid was never seen to fruition...
Often my attempts to communicate with those of superior minds has me seen as trying to keep up with the Joneses intellectually so to speak, and I
really hate that the world of those who think outside of the box have such an elitist society as to be very exclusionary at times.... feeling so
intellectually, philosophically, and in essense even existentially superior.
I have an older brother for example who is a genius as is our father. Both of them are quite articulate and yet though my understanding sometimes
makes their diatribes seem almost too obvious and simplistic to me, still I could never counter them and "hold my own" in a discussion because I
don't have the way to express myself...
Seriously, I might as well be Jerry Lewis when I try to speak, or express myself online. "Heellllllllllllllllllloooooooow?" Yeah I know you
youngin's don't even know who that is....I barely do
it's funny really, like some kind of ironic curse that I can see so much in the world, and understand so much, often much of what others don't...
and yet can express NOTHING legitamte as if a spell were cast upon me.
Like the MORE I see and understand, the LESS I am able to say....and the more I do attempt to say they less that is really said!!!
....I'm telling you the irony is enough to kill me
but worst of all is the isolation of finding boards like this with people who often THINK like me, or in contrast inspire me to think in another
direction, or take it up a notch in understanding and who can express it, and from whom I can learn from, and enjoy their "company"...and
yet...because I cannot equally express myself I am not their peer, thus I am disregarded as naught.
I am not naught-I am a person of thought...great thought...too much thought...and vast understanding and above all humble-meaning teachable most of
...and besides that I'm a hell of a person
I just never have enough articulate expression to impress anyone and often too much simplistic communication-but it's my only way of reaching out and
not letting the isolation control me-as again it's ironic that such a subculture of thinkers have their own biased control systems to divide
themselves into groups of the intellectually elite and the morons ...
so anyway (speaking of mind-numbing banal diatribes, right?) ignore me if you must, but understand I still may have to have my say so I feel I
Oh and thanks to my military service I am a DAV from GW1 and I can promise you as further explanation for me seeming to be a complete idiot, that my
service has done nothing but diminished my mental capacity further and it's been on the decline since then.
So I sit at home in wonderment of the fact I have co-created life 4 times and am surviving in a world so full of excrement I'm surprised I can dive
into life and breathe without a sh*t-scuba suit
But I've enjoyed lurking here, and hope if you see me on a board you'll be gentle with me...I don't know the ropes, the lingo, the "wink wink"
inside of these things and I will surely never be part of the intellectually elite nor the articualte "in-crowd", but I'll just hang out anyway if
you don't mind too much
(Think of me as a pet...don't expect too much from me, but when you put some effort into training me I can learn a trick rather
quick....attaboy!-Just don't try to teach me to speak!)
off to offer up my loyalty on the adopt a pet board...
[edit on 28-11-2005 by think2much]
Edit: Censor circumvention.
[edit on 28-11-2005 by intrepid]